Venting it’s been one year

[idlegirl]

one year since i necked a load of cocodamol and went to hospital for a week to recover.

i feel kind of weird about it all. i go through periods of not wanting to die really but then it always comes back. that was my first proper suicidal gesture.

today i tried pressing on my carotid arteries and make myself pass out. i think i got them but i stopped when i started to feel faint. then i had a headache after haha.

i wonder if i will still be here this time next year? i'm fairly sure i will eventually kill myself but not sure when.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds like a horrible experience ending up in a hospital but anyway I wish you the best in whatever happens going forward.

 

[idlegirl]

That sounds like a horrible experience ending up in a hospital but anyway I wish you the best in whatever happens going forward.

i was as sick as a dog! never again