Venting It’s around this time when I want to end myself most.

[Pancake]

I fill my day with distractions so I won't feel so despairing, but late at night, when there isn't any reason for anyone to be talking to me, I feel like ending myself most. I remember everyone I've hurt. I want to go back so badly and fix what I'd done. I'm so disappointed in myself. There isn't a step I don't regret. Maybe things will get better, but I don't think I deserve that.

These kinds of thoughts haunt me to sleep. It's depressing, and I just want to leave. I just want to disappear.

 

[aubrey!]

Nothing to do on these nights. Been in bed rolling around playing with my boxcutter for hours, remembering the things i've done. No one to talk to, it's 3 in the morning and no one's insane enough to be online but me. I'm having trouble falling asleep, but I hope it will be the last time. oh who am i kidding, that's just unrealistic.

 

[ptolemaea]

it's 6:37 a.m. and i have no plans to get out of bed. i have all the time in the world yet i can only rot in my bedroom. i have no friends, my family excludes me from everything they do. i wish i could fall asleep, never to wake up.

 

[autistascetic]

i haven't spoken to anyone besides the person that brings me food for over 5 years

who cares anyway

 

[FuneralCry]

It's very much understandable just wishing to disappear, existing in this world certainly can be painful and there really does seem to be no real relief from suffering.

 

[Danielwc]

We live in the world of the relative and make mistakes at the cost of other people. That's life. Whatever you have done is It's the rear view mirror and you are moving forward.