Venting It's all the same, everyday

[That one weird girl]

You dont have to read this. Its just me venting. Nothing special

I dont really know how to feel anymore. Everyday just seems to melt into eachother. I wakeup, take my antidepresants. walk my dog, go home and game then i walk my dog again and then i go to bed. Nothing ever changes. I understand that no one can change my life for me but what am i supposed to do without any money or friends? I want to die without dying. I just wish my life could be different. Im a terrible person and I truly believe i wont make a difference in this world. I just exist and take up space. I wish my parrents had gotten another kid. Someone who could make them proud, someone who could be able to work and make a living. Not a waste of space like me. I kind of hope my boyfriend is cheating on me so he has a girl who is actually sane and with a nice body.

Long story short. I want to die but im scared

 

[livinginhellnation]

Yeah, its fking miserable. Just living, no purpose, waiting to die. Pointless. Hopeless. Prolonging and suffering in the inevitable.

 

[Neogoloid]

At this point I'm trying to enjoy my last days, I'm going to attempt soon. I just eat, play video games, go on hikes, and reminisce on a life I never had but could've.

 

[user56765567]

Yeah, I can get what you mean when you say you feel like your days are just melting into each other. As my days goes by, I keep getting reminded of that old Groundhog Day movie with everyday feeling the exact same and life just slowly chipping away at my sanity and patience.

 

[lojogoeshome]

I absolutely feel this way. I have lost a lot in the last year and now my life is so pointless. I can't wring joy out of anything and being so close to CTB has taken the pressure off trying to "fix" all of my fuck ups. I see no meaningful future and I'm tormented by the past. That's my day, every day. I'm so sorry that other people live in this place too- I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Not saracasm, just feel this song fits. I sing it all the time out loud.