I feel crippled. I feel damaged to the point that it seems like other people would crawl over me. They seem like they will, with every opportunity that they get. I am starting to hate people. It is a horrifying loathing for a lot of humans. There's no fucking compassion, empathy or anything like that at all. Fuck this website as well. Nobody here cares either, for the most part. If I were to write something out of an issue ( Mental condition ) on this website, instead of understanding or talking about it, they'd outright ban me for that. That is quite a thing for a website where the moderators cry about autonomy and whatnot.
I don't want to hate or anything. I feel awful hating or spiting upsetting and offensive stuffs. I can't mentally handle any and all of this right now.
This life feels as if it's wasted for the most part, I'll be 20 soon and don't even have a regular college. All of my peers are doing so well. It makes me hate everything so much. I don't want to be insecure. I don't want to hate on other people seemingly doing good. I just, feel so vulnerable. It's as if anybody can hurt me at any moment now, emotionally. Physically, I can plunge a knife into my enemy and see where that takes me, but mentally I feel so exploitable right now. Nobody cares about your mental issues or whether or not you get them treated. They only care when they are supposed to use ' You need a therapist ' as a statement to win online discussions.
Why should anybody care though? Would I be so empathetic to the cause if I wasn't the way I am right now?
You shouldn't even judge.
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Thank you so much for looking at these texts.
There's no pressure to reply or anything.
I'd appreciate positive messages or stuffs that are on the optimistic side.
Have a great night.
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I am considering creating a Neet account due to how censored I have to keep my vents here on this website. Both of them are from the same guy but the moderators create so much difference I believe.
I used Artificial Intelligence to write this post guys.
I don't want to hate or anything. I feel awful hating or spiting upsetting and offensive stuffs. I can't mentally handle any and all of this right now.
This life feels as if it's wasted for the most part, I'll be 20 soon and don't even have a regular college. All of my peers are doing so well. It makes me hate everything so much. I don't want to be insecure. I don't want to hate on other people seemingly doing good. I just, feel so vulnerable. It's as if anybody can hurt me at any moment now, emotionally. Physically, I can plunge a knife into my enemy and see where that takes me, but mentally I feel so exploitable right now. Nobody cares about your mental issues or whether or not you get them treated. They only care when they are supposed to use ' You need a therapist ' as a statement to win online discussions.
Why should anybody care though? Would I be so empathetic to the cause if I wasn't the way I am right now?
You shouldn't even judge.
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Thank you so much for looking at these texts.
There's no pressure to reply or anything.
I'd appreciate positive messages or stuffs that are on the optimistic side.
Have a great night.
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I am considering creating a Neet account due to how censored I have to keep my vents here on this website. Both of them are from the same guy but the moderators create so much difference I believe.
I used Artificial Intelligence to write this post guys.
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