Venting It physically pains me being alive

[AngelJuttichot]

I hate being myself, there is so much pain and i can't even pinpoint where. Sometimes it just hits me like a rock, I want to be somewhere where I don't have to be like this anymore. I hate thinking of all the pain I've caused, all the issues that have sprung up because of me and how much I've wasted my life. I'm bound to die someday so what would be the point in watching myself grow old and rot away slowly?

sorry about this

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

Emotional pain can be so dreadful that it can affect us physically.
So sorry you are going through this.

 

[AngelJuttichot]

Emotional pain can be so dreadful that it can affect us physically.
So sorry you are going through this.

It's probably that and more, It's not worth going into other than the fact I feel awful