Venting It never gets better...

[dospi1]

man i wish i just could fall sleep and never wake up, ive relapsed so many times i simply no longer think im made for this world, i wont get better i dont have a future despite my best effort at uni and at work im somehow deficient, everytime things seem to get better you get slapped back down and as time goes on everything piles on i cant no longer get up, its like im pilling on debts that i have to life but i cant even start to pay my day to day expences i failed at life and i wont even get impounded i somehow refuse to die despite trying, why i have to suffer? why society seems so interested that i keep alive just to suffer some more, cant i chose? why cant i simply go to people that i care about to tell them ive had enough and that this world is no longer for me, i really just want to fall into deep sleep like i havent for years and just never wake up, it wont get better, it cant get better, i wont get better, i just want it to stop...

 

[davidtorez]

man i wish i just could fall sleep and never wake up, ive relapsed so many times i simply no longer think im made for this world, i wont get better i dont have a future despite my best effort at uni and at work im somehow deficient, everytime things seem to get better you get slapped back down and as time goes on everything piles on i cant no longer get up, its like im pilling on debts that i have to life but i cant even start to pay my day to day expences i failed at life and i wont even get impounded i somehow refuse to die despite trying, why i have to suffer? why society seems so interested that i keep alive just to suffer some more, cant i chose? why cant i simply go to people that i care about to tell them ive had enough and that this world is no longer for me, i really just want to fall into deep sleep like i havent for years and just never wake up, it wont get better, it cant get better, i wont get better, i just want it to stop...

I feel you. Its so unfair that we dont have that easy choice to just fall asleep and never wake up. Life wasn't meant for everyone

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand, I just want to fall asleep permanently as well, eternal sleep is all I hope for, I just want to never suffer ever again, I see so much cruelty in how suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter what with no acceptance towards the personal choice to cease existing, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep, I hope that you find peace.

 

[NoIdeaForAUsername]

why society seems so interested that i keep alive just to suffer some more, cant i chose?

So the answer is simple: society already invested resources into you and it's against everyone interest that you die, because then you stop working, which means society loses resources that you produce. You have recived lots of gifts from society like education, safety, food - you are basicly an investment in the eyes of your society.

Would you like to invest huge amount of your money into a project just to suddenly lose it before it gives you back enough to make it worth?

Im not acquitting, just explaining why society doesnt care about your suffering and trying to keep you alive no matter what