Venting It makes me sad to think that I will ctb without having lived so many things

[whybother2002]

I live in so much pain. I've been depressed for the past 4 years, for the last 4 weeks it's been hell. I've lost the will to live. I can't even enjoy music. Medications won't do shit.

After a failed attempt to OD 2 months ago, I decided that's it's time for me to die for good.

I didn't want this. I wanted to be happy. I wish I got to experience love for the first time. To have friends again.

It sucks, but god has his favorites. In this case is most of the world.

 

[Sleeper System]

I've been in that position so many times. Where all the things I like suddenly stop being enjoyable. In the moment, I felt like it was forever. But then time passes and the spark somehow reignites. I hope you can get to that point because music is one of those things that moves the spirit and can really help make our time in this shit life a little less miserable even if just for a few minutes.

 

[679chocolates]

I live in so much pain. I've been depressed for the past 4 years, for the last 4 weeks it's been hell. I've lost the will to live. I can't even enjoy music. Medications won't do shit.

After a failed attempt to OD 2 months ago, I decided that's it's time for me to die for good.

I didn't want this. I wanted to be happy. I wish I got to experience love for the first time. To have friends again.

It sucks, but god has his favorites. In this case is most of the world.

if it brings you any comfort, love isn't all it's cracked up to be, sure there are it's magical moments but you never truly know your partner, i put my all into a good girl just to be betrayed after years and giving her everything , and though this might not be everyone's experience it's probably more common than not these days with the decline of morals and the dopamine addiction. i'm sorry you can't even enjoy music anymore as it's probably one of the last things i still find is nice .

 

[Dejected 55]

It's all just horrible. I've done all I care to do. The only things left I'd like to do are things I can't do without a partner, and I'll never have that. But also, apparently I can't even die... so I feel like a zombie now.

 

[itsgone2]

It's all just horrible. I've done all I care to do. The only things left I'd like to do are things I can't do without a partner, and I'll never have that. But also, apparently I can't even die... so I feel like a zombie now.

This is exactly where I am. Zombie. What's the point of this? There can't be one. Sports in general have grown so much. Why? We all need a distraction but this much?(((

 

[Chairbed3]

I used to have so many goals and wants in life. I feel like I forgot about them. These days I feel nothing. I cry sometimes but it hardly lasts 2 minutes. I start crying and within minutes I forget why I started crying in the first place lol. I had a break down few days ago and it's the first time in years I cried so much my eyes were swollen I couldn't open them. Ever since then, my will to stop living strengthened.

I regret waiting this long.