Venting it hurts so much

[blush]

my body will never be right. life's so disturbing . just hurts and my body hurts i can't collect my thoughts.. it hurts so much . i don't understand why reality is so cruel. pain written everywhere and i don't understand why torture is the mode of reality which i have to experience. it honestly hurts sm that writing words is just pain.

i hope you heal from whatever is torturing you too

 

[gardenhouse]

my body will never be right. life's so disturbing . just hurts and my body hurts i can't collect my thoughts.. it hurts so much . i don't understand why reality is so cruel. pain written everywhere and i don't understand why torture is the mode of reality which i have to experience. it honestly hurts sm that writing words is just pain.

i hope you heal from whatever is torturing you too

Sorry to hear it, do you physical pain? Have you seen a doctor?

 

[sashaisalone]

my body will never be right. life's so disturbing . just hurts and my body hurts i can't collect my thoughts.. it hurts so much . i don't understand why reality is so cruel. pain written everywhere and i don't understand why torture is the mode of reality which i have to experience. it honestly hurts sm that writing words is just pain.

i hope you heal from whatever is torturing you too

I'm MTF so I greatly relate to the feeling that my body isn't quite right and will never feel like home. I am however supposed to go under the knife in late May assuming I don't CTB in the meantime, and my hope is that if my waist is tighter/less android fat, and I have breasts that look like they actually belong to a 30y/o adult woman and not a 13y/o girl, and I see a woman's silhouette in the mirror before I get dressed, I'll finally feel at home, and people may actually want to date me.