Note: This is just a vent & I would prefer avoiding replies or follow up writings to just forget about this post later on. I appreciate anybody reading this, taking their time to do it.
I have by continuous attempts to sabotaging it, ruined good career options of my past. I even missed on educational opportunities like good colleges. I have a massive F.O.M.O. because of my current state while my peers ' live '. I am sure everybody gets struggles in their lives & me judging from afar, someone else's share of problems, is pointless. That being said though, I still feel upset at times.
I am grateful of what I still have.
My problem with anticipating my future is that visualising a glorious future seems difficult with my current status being where it is.
I am just floating each week, doing random activities like a brainless person to avoid or steer away from things I would have to face. This is so immature & I hate this behaviour. I will still keep doing it though, just this another month. I am clueless & afraid. I feel brain dead because of my brain being foggy.
Upside - Atleast I am still alive. I could create my happiness if I wanted to.
P.S. : Avoid replying.
Bye!
Night!
I have by continuous attempts to sabotaging it, ruined good career options of my past. I even missed on educational opportunities like good colleges. I have a massive F.O.M.O. because of my current state while my peers ' live '. I am sure everybody gets struggles in their lives & me judging from afar, someone else's share of problems, is pointless. That being said though, I still feel upset at times.
I am grateful of what I still have.
My problem with anticipating my future is that visualising a glorious future seems difficult with my current status being where it is.
I am just floating each week, doing random activities like a brainless person to avoid or steer away from things I would have to face. This is so immature & I hate this behaviour. I will still keep doing it though, just this another month. I am clueless & afraid. I feel brain dead because of my brain being foggy.
Upside - Atleast I am still alive. I could create my happiness if I wanted to.
P.S. : Avoid replying.
Bye!
Night!
