Venting It could've already been over...

[My Melancholy]

I just feel so disappointed in myself.

I had a few free days which would have been the perfect opportunity to CTB, but I wasted them by being lazy and unproductive, and now it's back to work tomorrow.

Theoretically, I still have time before then, but I don't how well an attempt would go given that I don't have all the recommended SN protocol materials. I just have SN and painkillers. These will likely be the only things I use in my protocol, but I don't want a potentially rushed attempt to hurt my chances even further.

The only thing worrying me about SN is the high chance of vomiting, which makes me even more regretful I don't have an AE, but it shouldn't be too much to handle. The chance that anyone would hear me vomiting is unlikely as I've done it a fair few times and nothing was ever mentioned to me if it was even heard at all.

I still have some hours left. Should I take the risk or should I just hope another opportunity presents itself?

 

[Ch4in3dcr0w]

If u can get AE's or meto then i would always suggest postponing the date. Its not a case effectiveness as SN on its own is deadly enough but comfort. If by pushing the date u can greatly increase the comfort of your last hour i think its worth it.

Both options are completely valid and my talk about comfort doesn't mean much if u don't care about comfort. The decision is always up to you and no matter what u decide i hope you find Peace. ^^

 

[My Melancholy]

If u can get AE's or meto then i would always suggest postponing the date. Its not a case effectiveness as SN on its own is deadly enough but comfort. If by pushing the date u can greatly increase the comfort of your last hour i think its worth it.

Both options are completely valid and my talk about comfort doesn't mean much if u don't care about comfort. The decision is always up to you and no matter what u decide i hope you find Peace. ^^

Unfortunately, I don't reasonably think I could access meto or any other AE.

I've accepted that my protocol is not the best for minimizing discomfort, but 20 minutes of uneasiness should pass soon enough to be worth it in the end.

I appreciate your response <3