DarkFriend.
Neverending Suffering
- May 1, 2022
- 65
I got to thinking about this just now and am curious as to how others here feel.
I've known for most of my life, even as a small child that suicide is the way I want to go, eventually. It's just what makes the most sense to me--taking matters into my own hands.
Even if I wasn't saddled with mind-numbing depression (there have been brief pauses throughout my life), it simply still would be my preferred way, from a logical and philosophical viewpoint.
I see CTB as an expression of freedom in the purest sense. A rejection of a system we've been crudely injected into, yes, but also a glorious triumph for life.
If one has more or less done the things that one deems worth doing, then what else is there?
Better to CTB than to slowly wither away. I've seen what happens to those who drag on incessantly lives that have lost their worthwhileness, and it is a gruesome discovery.
In my case, obviously, I've felt so far that it is worth sticking around--but at some point I will be at the end of my line, and either the universe will randomly take matters into its hands, or I will into my own.
And so that's it. Clearly there is randomness, which can be the end of anyone at anytime, but with the exception of that, and given as much time as needed, would you or would you not most certainly CTB?
I've known for most of my life, even as a small child that suicide is the way I want to go, eventually. It's just what makes the most sense to me--taking matters into my own hands.
Even if I wasn't saddled with mind-numbing depression (there have been brief pauses throughout my life), it simply still would be my preferred way, from a logical and philosophical viewpoint.
I see CTB as an expression of freedom in the purest sense. A rejection of a system we've been crudely injected into, yes, but also a glorious triumph for life.
If one has more or less done the things that one deems worth doing, then what else is there?
Better to CTB than to slowly wither away. I've seen what happens to those who drag on incessantly lives that have lost their worthwhileness, and it is a gruesome discovery.
In my case, obviously, I've felt so far that it is worth sticking around--but at some point I will be at the end of my line, and either the universe will randomly take matters into its hands, or I will into my own.
And so that's it. Clearly there is randomness, which can be the end of anyone at anytime, but with the exception of that, and given as much time as needed, would you or would you not most certainly CTB?