Is your ability to enjoy anything totally gone?

[Taki]

I've completely lost the ability to enjoy anything, including small pleasures. I hate eating and even things that others say would thrill them either create no response or make me sad.
When something "good" happens I only feel as though I've just escaped a catastrophe.

 

[Snake of Eden]

Yes there is nothing that brings me joy anymore. Everyday is the same and things that used to entertain, dont anymore

 

[Jumping_realms]

I'm sorry.

Yes, I have some severe anhedonia.

 

[Taki]

Yes there is nothing that brings me joy anymore. Everyday is the same and things that used to entertain, dont anymore

I hear you. I drink way too much and take stupid risks. But I don't care. Except I grieve the life I wasted and lost.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I do not enjoy anything really. There is a underlying feeling of despair and dread upon every waking moment. I just feel empty for the most part. Life just doesn't interest me at all and I do not have the energy for it. Life is so dull and tedious, I see other people as repeating the same activities day after day on a loop. Whenever I see somebody else enjoying anything, I feel so disconnected to it. This life is so pointless as we are just waiting around for death.

 

[AnimeBoysKeepMeAlive]

Yes. Hobbies like drawing and writing use to make me happy but now every time I thought of doing it feels so heavy. Projects I want to do seems so distant. If I do end up doing it, it will only last for few minutes and I just blankly stare, this end up as a cycle of feeling worthlessness and despair.

 

[Apricity]

Yes. I just feel so empty and numb every day. I don't play any of my video games anymore, I don't watch TV, I don't read. All I do is sit on the couch and surf these forums. I attended a baby shower yesterday for one of my wife's sisters and put on a mask of normalcy, but was dead on the inside.

 

[Realman!@]

Yes, there's always a feeling a despair no matter what I do.

 

[DisillusionedDragon]

I don't think so. I think it's just inhibited by the constant stress and suffering life throws at me. I could probably enjoy things if that weren't the case. But yeah, at the moment I really relate.

 

[Taki]

Yes. I just feel so empty and numb every day. I don't play any of my video games anymore, I don't watch TV, I don't read. All I do is sit on the couch and surf these forums. I attended a baby shower yesterday for one of my wife's sisters and put on a mask of normalcy, but was dead on the inside.

I hear you. I go to work every day and see family, but I think constantly of killing myself and am super averse to most social interaction. I feel that everyone can see the failure.

 

[LastWhisper]

Something like this, yes. While I can have a want to do something sometimes, I feel nothing, like my life became autonomous.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

No, I don't enjoy anything...though I can feel a tinge of interest reading or watching other tragedies. At least you work. It may suck, though sitting at home waiting for the doom to hit is pretty fucking bad.

 

[Dymming Star6]

Yes, it truly has...I am now just a simple, sad shell of a person...I look in the mirror and see my slowly fading ghost...

 

[motel rooms]

I've completely lost the ability to enjoy anything, including small pleasures. I hate eating and even things that others say would thrill them either create no response or make me sad.

Doesn't sex do anything for you? You said you were still sexually active the other day

 

[Lost Magic]

I still enjoy some simple pleasures in life because that is all I have left.

 

[MBY85]

Yeah. It sucks but I feel the same way

 

[Dear Agony]

Yes. The only thing I enjoy doing is eating, as I am bulimic and genuinely addicted to food. It makes my life hell, but it's the only thing that brings me joy at the same time and I would have been dead long ago if I didn't have this addiction. Aside from that, I do enjoy moments with my family, as they are so important to me, but at the same time I am in constant mental and physical agony during those too, and food is the only thing that relieves that.

 

[suisuiforum]

Most of the time, I do not experience any joy from being alive at all. On rare occasions when I actually experience a modicum of happiness from life, I'm immediately drawn back into soul-crushing despair because it never lasts, and the lows are more hard-hitting than the highs.

 

[chocolatebar]

Yes, it truly has...I am now just a simple, sad shell of a person...I look in the mirror and see my slowly fading ghost...

I can't even look at myself in the mirror. I simply don't recognize this person anymore.

 

[ClownMe]

Pretty much.

 

[motel rooms]

It's scary as shit that so many people on here have been unable to enjoy anything for years, yet they still can't overcome their SI

 

[Marktheghost]

Not totally. To some extent I still enjoy food and music. I enjoy them a lot less than I used to though, and I'm struggling to think of much else that I enjoy at all. So yeah, close to totally.

 

[logan]

Yes, I wouldn't have thought that possible either - but due to certain developments and experiences, it can get to the point where you no longer feel joy. And I think that it doesn't always have to be pathological. We are so intelligent as humans that we can ask ourselves "Why? What for?"

 

[deflationary]

I still get some brief and transitory enjoyment out of art and entertainment and food and socializing and such.

So I still have the ability to enjoy things. It's just the conditions of my life (and most lives I can imagine tbf) that are unsatisfactory and overwhelming and make it hard to really appreciate anything for very long because in light of all of this shit, everything seems too little. But I think I still have the *ability* to enjoy life, if only the conditions were different. In short, I'm not the one that's broken, it's the world that's broken. I refuse responsibility.

 

[GreenMile]

Yes, as @FuneralCry says 'There is a underlying feeling of despair and dread upon every waking moment'.

I stuff food that would of been a treat into my mouth and just feel sick, I kill time playing online poker and win like I never did before, you would think winning a few hundred bucks would at least give a moments pleasure but really I'm just waiting until I have written out some very lengthy but necessary suicide notes, I have to get those right and then a showdown with SI.

 

[Otto]

Yes ,there is nothing in life that gives me any joy or get satisfaction from doing.
I feel compelled to complete certain tasks to allow a little but of quiet time with my mind but I certainly don't enjoy completing them or get satisfaction from

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Yes, but pleasure is a complete joke in comparison to peace and contentment. Not that I have much of that, but sometimes.

 

[mostlycloudy]

I can enjoy some things, but mostly what I want and need feels out of reach.

 

[motel rooms]

Yes, but pleasure is a complete joke in comparison to peace and contentment. Not that I have much of that, but sometimes.

Peace & contentment are just forms of pleasure too. We're only capable of experiencing pain or pleasure, that's all there is for animals

 

[Forgotten]

Completely. I used to enjoy eating, but I don't even enjoy that anymore, I lost 10kg in the last few months.
My life is just an empty existence now, nothing gives me pleasure anymore, I'm a shadow of your former self.