I will say that it's never too late to have a good relationship—or a relationship with your daughter. I had a horrible relationship with my father for most of my life. He did things that affected my behavior as an adolescent and as an adult. But finally, in my 30s (and a random few years in my late teens), my dad is really the only person I can count on. I know that he is truly the only person that loves me, unconditionally. The monster under my bed became my knight in shining armor. I know you've made peace with your decision, and I agree, fuck this place—but I feel compelled to tell people, in any situation, that a father-daughter relationship is never completely broken or estranged beyond repair. Anyway, much love to you.