Venting is this life real?

[laserpunk]

so often i have these moments where i don't feel real, like life's so chaotic and the concept of time is so hard to grasp that i can't actually be living right now. i don't know, i just feel like reality can't possibly be happening so why am i even here still? if it all doesn't really matter in the end, then why keep going? i just don't feel real

 

[SleepyTime]

Nope, I used to know that dreams were reality and our "awake" state was the real dream. When I would fall asleep I would pick up exactly where my previous night's dream ended. What we call reality is not our true self and is just a dream.

 

[laserpunk]

Nope, I used to know that dreams were reality and our "awake" state was the real dream. When I would fall asleep I would pick up exactly where my previous night's dream ended. What we call reality is not our true self and is just a dream.

but what do we do with that. you're on this site so maybe i can assume that you're looking for a way out? for me i go through phases of feeling like if it isn't real than i can push through and make whatever happen, to why am i putting effort into something that doesn't matter in the end and feeling so much pain throughout it, knowing that more's to come in the future

 

[Lisa]

so often i have these moments where i don't feel real, like life's so chaotic and the concept of time is so hard to grasp that i can't actually be living right now. i don't know, i just feel like reality can't possibly be happening so why am i even here still? if it all doesn't really matter in the end, then why keep going? i just don't feel real

I feel the same

I really believe it's not real

Nope, I used to know that dreams were reality and our "awake" state was the real dream. When I would fall asleep I would pick up exactly where my previous night's dream ended. What we call reality is not our true self and is just a dream.

Agreed

but what do we do with that. you're on this site so maybe i can assume that you're looking for a way out? for me i go through phases of feeling like if it isn't real than i can push through and make whatever happen, to why am i putting effort into something that doesn't matter in the end and feeling so much pain throughout it, knowing that more's to come in the future

I think we come here for pain

we might get bored over in the other side where we know we are eternal

so we come here for the rush

I think

 

[laserpunk]

I feel the same

I really believe it's not real

Agreed

I think we come here for pain

we might get bored over in the other side where we know we are eternal

so we come here for the rush

I think

that's an interesting perspective, but also screw my soul or whatever for wanting to experience this
that's what's crazy is if it all is some bigger picture, why does such trivial hardships matter. like personally i'm going through some pretty devastating heartbreak and it's like part of me feels so much pain and the other part just doesn't even care, because i'm the grand scheme of things i know it probably doesn't matter.

 

[Lisa]

that's an interesting perspective, but also screw my soul or whatever for wanting to experience this
that's what's crazy is if it all is some bigger picture, why does such trivial hardships matter. like personally i'm going through some pretty devastating heartbreak and it's like part of me feels so much pain and the other part just doesn't even care, because i'm the grand scheme of things i know it probably doesn't matter.

I have this ex
He's crazy
Stalking me threatening to kill me for years.
This is the truth in real life.
now listen to a dream I had. In the dream he was chasing me to kill me. I was terrified and running.
all of a sudden he stopped.
all of a sudden I stepped out of character and said to him "why did you stop?"
He said he didn't want to chase me anymore. I said why? we were having fun. Come on.
And he said no I'm not having fun anymore

strange

 

[laserpunk]

I have this ex
He's crazy
Stalking me threatening to kill me for years.
This is the truth in real life.
now listen to a dream I had. In the dream he was chasing me to kill me. I was terrified and running.
all of a sudden he stopped.
all of a sudden I stepped out of character and said to him "why did you stop?"
He said he didn't want to chase me anymore. I said why? we were having fun. Come on.
And he said no I'm not having fun anymore

strange

that is strange, but i wouldn't put it past your subconscious wanting him to stop.

 

[Lisa]

that is strange, but i wouldn't put it past your subconscious wanting him to stop.

True.
But this is one of many dreams that reveal things.
And I've had awake experiences as well.
all point to a higher reality

 

[laserpunk]

There are so many simulation theories and this thread I posted is quite old I have heard about more since but I find it fascinating and pretty sure it could be true.

do you think there's a point then?

 

[GiveUp]

so often i have these moments where i don't feel real, like life's so chaotic and the concept of time is so hard to grasp that i can't actually be living right now. i don't know, i just feel like reality can't possibly be happening so why am i even here still? if it all doesn't really matter in the end, then why keep going? i just don't feel real

This sounds like dissociation / derealisation. I have that often where this life doesnt feel real. I feel like I'm in a film watching myself. It's hollow.

 

[laserpunk]

This sounds like dissociation / derealisation. I have that often where this life doesnt feel real. I feel like I'm in a film watching myself. It's hollow.

didn't know there was a name for this. wish i knew what to do about it though
i don't really get the watching myself thing, more like things just go blank and i'm trying to piece together who i and everyone else is or what i'm suppose to be doing

 

[TheGoodGuy]

do you think there's a point then?

I am sleep deprived i´ts 9:48am and I haven´t slept because of insomnia and a bit drunk atm plus on benzos so I can´t give you a concise answer but I guess any answer to it would be inconprohensible to us, who knows there are many theories we might be simulations of human history or might be Gods who are bored and want to experience humans existence but there are many more. Personally I am a narcissist so I kinda think if the world is a simulation it´s revolving around me and it´s happening like in a video game e.g. GTA V the whole map isn´t there all the time it´s being created as you go in a direction the best visualisation of this is from Rick and Morty in the simulation episode where the simulation freezes and they get to the edge that is how open world video games work to save power so the world gets created as we go along so you can´t even be certain that if you have a friend or family who visits you that they actually made the drive over to you who´s to say they didn´t just appeared when they knocked on your door? I have some more videos about this theory I could share if interested but they are "long" like 20+ minutes and in nowadays time people don´t have the attention span to watch videos longer than a few minutes or even seconds so that is why I haven´t shared them because most people don´t wanna watch a man with great philosophical ideas where they need to think they want quick videos on scroll on to the next one.

Edit: Sorry for the wall text as I said I am sleep deprived, on benzos and drunk

 

[Forever Wandering]

Look up derealization and depersonalization. Yes life here is real but only to a degree.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Look up derealization and depersonalization. Yes life here is real but only to a degree.

One thing I find fascinating and kind of evidence is how we are biomechanical beings since our bodies work on eletric impulses, like your brain send electric impulses through your body so there is electricity involved in even moving muscles so we could be highly advanced "robots"

 

[Forever Wandering]

One thing I find fascinating and kind of evidence is how we are biomechanical beings since our bodies work on eletric impulses, like your brain send electric impulses through your body so there is electricity involved in even moving muscles so we could be highly advanced "robots"

Agreed

 

[PrettyMoose]

Row, row, row your boat
Gently down the stream
Merrily merrily, merrily, merrily
Life is but a dream

 

[Empty Smile]

Every once in a while, while I am awake, everything I'm doing, or what's going on around me doesn't feel real, it feels like I'm dreaming. It's kind of a weird feeling, but I like how it feels.

 

[GiveUp]

didn't know there was a name for this. wish i knew what to do about it though
i don't really get the watching myself thing, more like things just go blank and i'm trying to piece together who i and everyone else is or what i'm suppose to be doing

Looking it up is your first port of call: http://www.verywellmind.com/what-is-dissociation-22201

 

[selfhater]

i feel that too, i remember when i had a breakdown long time ago i was screaming "this is not real"

 

[Csmith8827]

Eugenicists shit IMO. Trying to showcase a "master-race" of people through media and shit like that.

do you think there's a point then?

 

[Sensei]

Forever Wandering raises a good point. When pain becomes too difficult to handle, our minds can go into self-preservation mode. It's easier to handle pain which isn't real.

 

[bpdandme]

so often i have these moments where i don't feel real, like life's so chaotic and the concept of time is so hard to grasp that i can't actually be living right now. i don't know, i just feel like reality can't possibly be happening so why am i even here still? if it all doesn't really matter in the end, then why keep going? i just don't feel real

I used to think I was the only person who thought like this. I feel like you're experiencing a form of depersonalisation/derealisation. They have a subreddit which made me feel understood. Here if you need a chat!

 

[Epsilon0]

Forever Wandering raises a good point. When pain becomes too difficult to handle, our minds can go into self-preservation mode. It's easier to handle pain which isn't real.

During moments of intense anxiety or prolongued pain episodes, I had the feeling I wasn't real, or rather I has the feeling that nothing was real, including me.

It was terryfing... that fear... that terror... the rawest fear and terror you can imagine. Like an ice-cold hand squeezing your entire body...

 

[lifeisbutadream]

A Dream Within a Dream

By Edgar Allan Poe

Take this kiss upon the brow!
And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow —
You are not wrong, who deem
That my days have been a dream;
Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,
In a vision, or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.

I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And I hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand —
How few! yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep,
While I weep — while I weep!
O God! Can I not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?
O God! can I not save
One from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?