Help Is this gender dysphoria or self hatred?

[OutOfThisBody]

I have been wanting to kill myself because I am a woman, because I have read so many more benefits that men have biologically. It started around half a year ago.

I have also felt disgust since then with seeing my body. Partly because I feel like it marks weakness and inferiority.

Is this gender dysphoria that was hidden or is this disgust caused by my suicidality?

 

[dontlook]

I suffer from dysphoria and it definitely sounds like it's a factor in how you're feeling. It also sounds like you have some self loathing/misogyny

There are a variety of routes to addressing dysphoria and many people come out at the end very happy and satisfied. I have no idea about your situation or if this is possible or even wanted by you, but I'm happy to talk more about it or share info if you like

 

[ScaredOfMachines]

I have been wanting to kill myself because I am a woman, because I have read so many more benefits that men have biologically. It started around half a year ago.

I have also felt disgust since then with seeing my body. Partly because I feel like it marks weakness and inferiority.

Is this gender dysphoria that was hidden or is this disgust caused by my suicidality?

I agree with @dontlook. I'm still figuring out what I am, but I've decided I'm definitely transmasc and I have a lot of the same feelings that you do.

 

[depthss]

I feel the exact same thing. For the past few years, I've felt a very strong hatred for myself and my body because I'm female. At least in my case, it has absolutely nothing to do with gender dysphoria and being trans and everything to do with just feeling weak

 

[failureofahuman]

I agree, I feel worthless as I don't have good feminine or good masculine traits. I'm a failure of a woman and a worthless human being

 

[drag201]

I'm trans and i was born female and dysphoria is like an absolutely crushing feeling of forever being stuck somewhere you will never belong. I've always had this feeling ever since i could grasp it, but the experience is different for everyone. I think you are just struggling with some sort of internal misogyny, not actually hating the fact that you are a woman. Would you rather be a man because being a woman doesnt call to you emotionally, or just because you feel upset about men having more "benefits" than women? I don't think it's anything related to gender dysphoria.