Venting Is this a sign?

[otoyikim]

Today, i was planning on going to my psychiatrist to get myself commited. Hell, for this goal, i even made up a cover story saying that an emergency lesson was bout to start today.

Wards in turkey are inadequate, and shit, but i thought, i might as well try this as a last resort.

And JUST AS I WAS ABOUT TO GO, My stomach lost its nerve and i had to eventually force myself to vomit.

Should i still go? Or is this, perhaps, a sign?

 

[U. A.]

people seem to have pretty split reactions in that stays can be very positive experiences, or they can be extremely awful and make things worse. if you already had apprehensions i imagine this may have fuelled your body's response. the gut is in such regular communication it is now often called a "second brain" in physiology; the old adage of trusting it is wiser than it seems.
it's like thinking without thinking about thinking.

 

[otoyikim]

people seem to have pretty split reactions in that stays can be very positive experiences, or they can be extremely awful and make things worse. if you already had apprehensions i imagine this may have fuelled your body's response. the gut is in such regular communication it is now often called a "second brain" in physiology; the old adage of trusting it is wiser than it seems.
it's like thinking without thinking about thinking.

I think that something i ate did poison me.

Still though, i will go to the hospital this monday.

Midterms begin at tuesday so it is the last window of oppurtunity for me to go to the hospital.

It is easy to make a cover story to as well.

Might as well exhaust all options.