Is there something you want to do or achieve before CTB?

[layne2001]

It sounds kind of weird but I'd like to get some of my shit together for the satisfaction of my family and friends to see me getting my shit together and feeling momentaneously better for me. I'm about to hurt them permanently so I can't see the harm in being the best I can be before I ctb. Buy some new clothes, see some friends for the last time, pretend I got new goals or something like that

 

[healthrecovery]

Would not make a fuss out of it and just ctb

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I can't really remember the last time I achieved anything. I don't even know what that would look like.

 

[FuneralCry]

There is nothing that I want to do. If I had things that I enjoyed and could actually physically do, then maybe I would not want to ctb so badly. I just want to be free from this world and never have to suffer again. Everything is painful. Death is freedom from this horrible life.

 

[MeltedJello]

I kind of want to hangout with old friends to hopefully experience some kind of happiness one last time, but at the same time, it seems pointless since I'm going to ctb anyway.

 

[Ta555]

I kind of want to hangout with old friends to hopefully experience some kind of happiness one last time, but at the same time, it seems pointless since I'm going to ctb anyway.

Like @FuneralCry said, if I had the physical and mental health to do these things I wouldn't want to CTB. That's my reason...at the moment I'm not able to do the things I enjoy and that used to give so much meaning to my life. I am still hoping that will change but I've ordered SN and I have a rope. I don't know if the SN will arrive but I hope it will.

 

[FreeAngel]

I'll clean up my apartment and take a shower before I go

 

[Choco]

Eat pizza and smth sweet

 

[NormaJeane]

I have done and experienced enough in my life, the rest of my life will only be meaningless and stupid. The modern life is too long, life expectancy is too high.

 

[4eyebiped]

If I didn't have to worry about money, a modest living, there are many things I would like to do, which are probably boring to most. In the end, I imagine I am still a nut and would want to CTB but at least doing these things would justify all these years of suffering. I hate to die at my age with no justification for living this long. That makes me highly sour for some reason. If only the younger me would have had the balls and resources to finish the job early on. There would be no regrets.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Would like to get laid just once just to see what it would be like since I never have before even at 27 years old but sometimes I fear that the experience might be so good that it convinces me not to CTB.

 

[FreeAngel]

Would like to get laid just once just to see what it would be like since I never have before even at 27 years old but sometimes I fear that the experience might be so good that it convinces me not to CTB.

i think exactly the same omg

 

[Disco Biscuit]

I decided I wanted to run a marathon, which I did in September. I had a great time and I'm really happy I did it. So then I decided to run an ultra-marathon in October and that was great too. There's a 100k ultra I'd really like to do next year but that involves staying alive until then. As much as I enjoy extreme athletic endeavours, it's not enough to make me want to stick around. Maybe if I met a nice guy - someone smart and interesting who I could really connect with,. It makes me sad that I'm going to die having never been in love or ever having been loved back, even though I know how capable I am of it.

Eyes are watering now for some reason...

 

[suicidebiddybyebye]

Probably write some notes and a will (I suppose it won't be an official one, since a young adult getting a lawyer to sign a will would set off alarm bells lol). Also, a note on what to do with my body; I think I want to get cremated and have instructions on where to spread my ashes.

Maybe pick out some nice clothes to die in.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Probably write some notes and a will (I suppose it won't be an official one, since a young adult getting a lawyer to sign a will would set off alarm bells lol).

Maybe pick out some nice clothes to die in.

I think you can actually get a Will done online… Nobody needs to know that you did it and then you could just have multiple copies distributed… Maybe You don't have any significant possessions to Pass on

 

[suicidebiddybyebye]

I think you can actually get a Will done online… Nobody needs to know that you did it and then you could just have multiple copies distributed… Maybe You don't have any significant possessions to Pass on

To be honest, I don't have many possessions, but they may have sentimental value to those around me. Maybe some of my money could go towards funeral costs or whatever. Idk.

 

[layne2001]

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I kind of want to hangout with old friends to hopefully experience some kind of happiness one last time, but at the same time, it seems pointless since I'm going to ctb anyway.

I agree. sometimes its hard to see a point even in saying goodbye

I'll clean up my apartment and take a shower before I go

Both in my plans as well!

Would like to get laid just once just to see what it would be like since I never have before even at 27 years old but sometimes I fear that the experience might be so good that it convinces me not to CTB.

It's not life saving but it is good. I'd say definetely go after this one