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DiscussionIs there anything you think could make you no longer suicidal?
Thread starteryellowsouled
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I do not think there is, but maybe if I had no obligations and perhaps was born free to explore the world whilst living somewhat life as semi-recluse I would delay it. Otherwise I do not see any reason that could change the inevitable given life as it is, is not my own rather I will always be obliged to social duties, and experience all the pain both social, and bodily that comes with the human condition.
Right now just not living with my family would help a lot. I used to live over a thousand miles away and moved out when I was just 14. Now I'm back in their house because I have no where else to go. I've gone back in the closet and stripped myself of any personality to fit better into what I assume they want me to be. I'm an adult but I feel like a child again. I don't know why I can't talk to my mom without making her upset. She kicks me and hits me occasionally, but I can't do anything in return or I'm abusive and she threatens to call the cops and kick me out. I miss being estranged. At least I had some control over my life.
This is going to sound very idealistic but if the world developed more empathy instead of immediate judgement. I think, if the systems weren't against me and people actually gave a shit, a lot of things would have been different.
A lot of money might extend my life, but probably not save it. I'd like to live comfortably and provide for the ones I care about, even if just for a little while.
I deal with maladaptive daydreaming. AKA I am daydreaming almost constantly regardless of consequences, usually spacing or sometimes (in a minor way) acting out the daydreams. This is the one thing that keeps me from doing some really stupid and ineffective CTB method out of impulse, because even if real life sucks, I can always retreat inwards.
At one point I thought if my daydreams were real (or my daydream-self was real), I'd never be suicidal, but I've noticed that a good chunk of my daydreams anymore involve killing myself (and when not, it's usually there in a fastasy, immortal, not-really-dead-forever way), so...that's a bust I guess.
I also considered before if I won the lottery somehow I might be less suicidal, but it's been background noise in my brain for so long I'm not sure it's a thing that would ever just go away, no matter how "good" I had it.
Nah I'm done. Life has sucked up until now and even if someone told me it was going to get better I just don't give a shit anymore. I'm tired of existing.
Within the set of things I can obtain? No, absolutely not. My issues are a bit complex and I don't have a solution for them(an obtainable one at least)
I've found that the first step is to own up to it. And learn for if there is a next time. If there is hope, and we believe, maybe the universe will give us a chance. All the best
This is going to sound very idealistic but if the world developed more empathy instead of immediate judgement. I think, if the systems weren't against me and people actually gave a shit, a lot of things would have been different.
A healthy brain. I fixed my whole life the best I could, some things are good but I can't feel anything from them besides sadness. Saw two psychologists and they concurred with me that, if I won the lottery, I'd still be depressed.
I think that is true but I'd still like to win that much money and figure out for myself. Maybe I could pay a lot of money to some neurologist to fix me, I don't know.
I've improved all the things I have control over in my life, worked so hard. I'm just incapable of being content.
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