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wontachievehappines
Looking for ctb partner
- Sep 22, 2023
- 64
I could really use someone to talk right now. So my mom broke both of her wrists a few months ago and she's still healing. Me and my sister have to help her out a lot. Like getting her ready, bathing, cooking and trying to maintain a clean house. I also go a new internship that's part time too.
For dinner she wanted tuna salad. I was going to make it bc my sister doesn't feel too good. While I ate my dinner I was watching Lily Chou Chou. It's a depressing and tear jerky film. I actually shed a few tears before I heard her coming down to the kitchen. I was still pretty sad, and gout up quickly.
Anyways we're gathering the ingredients (she's able to hold light things) for the tuna salad. The refrigerator is open and I get out the new bottle of mustard. But she's looking at the old one in the refrigerator and saying "the new one. The new one." And so I hesitantly take out the old bottle and hand it to her. I'm sure I must have looked confused too. She then slams in on the counter and said she knew one, which I had been holding. Soon after she's like "forget it! Because I can see that you have an attitude' (or something like that) I tried telling her multiple times that I didn't but she said I was being disingenuous and mocked me
I truly wasn't upset or annoyed that I was making her dinner. But she kept telling me to shut up. This isn't the first time she's lashed out at me or my siblings. To be honest I think I can say we've been emotionally abused. My sister even tried to explain that she took it all wrong and misunderstood. But she said that she ' discerned that that wasn't true'. She then said more really hurtful things. "You hardly do anything while (sisters name) does everything" which isn't true, me and my sister try do make sure we're working evenly. "a waste of space" and other stuff
Just a few days ago, she said that I had an "attitude" when we're joking around how we had in the past. I was legitimately so confused. I tried to look for homeless shelters near me but most of them you need to apply for and/or it's outside of their business hours.
I've been cry so so much. What I'm typing doesn't fully encapsulate how badly she lashed out on me and all the hurtful things she's said. I keep praying too, so that the Lord hears my prayers and finds a safe place for me go to. My chest hurts and I've been hiding in pantry for a while. For the other Christians please pray for me, and even if your aren't please pray to Jesus for me. I'm so scared
For dinner she wanted tuna salad. I was going to make it bc my sister doesn't feel too good. While I ate my dinner I was watching Lily Chou Chou. It's a depressing and tear jerky film. I actually shed a few tears before I heard her coming down to the kitchen. I was still pretty sad, and gout up quickly.
Anyways we're gathering the ingredients (she's able to hold light things) for the tuna salad. The refrigerator is open and I get out the new bottle of mustard. But she's looking at the old one in the refrigerator and saying "the new one. The new one." And so I hesitantly take out the old bottle and hand it to her. I'm sure I must have looked confused too. She then slams in on the counter and said she knew one, which I had been holding. Soon after she's like "forget it! Because I can see that you have an attitude' (or something like that) I tried telling her multiple times that I didn't but she said I was being disingenuous and mocked me
I truly wasn't upset or annoyed that I was making her dinner. But she kept telling me to shut up. This isn't the first time she's lashed out at me or my siblings. To be honest I think I can say we've been emotionally abused. My sister even tried to explain that she took it all wrong and misunderstood. But she said that she ' discerned that that wasn't true'. She then said more really hurtful things. "You hardly do anything while (sisters name) does everything" which isn't true, me and my sister try do make sure we're working evenly. "a waste of space" and other stuff
Just a few days ago, she said that I had an "attitude" when we're joking around how we had in the past. I was legitimately so confused. I tried to look for homeless shelters near me but most of them you need to apply for and/or it's outside of their business hours.
I've been cry so so much. What I'm typing doesn't fully encapsulate how badly she lashed out on me and all the hurtful things she's said. I keep praying too, so that the Lord hears my prayers and finds a safe place for me go to. My chest hurts and I've been hiding in pantry for a while. For the other Christians please pray for me, and even if your aren't please pray to Jesus for me. I'm so scared