Is there anyone on here you miss ?

[psp3000]

I didn't get to interact with this person much but JuleFromGermany

I wish I interacted with her more

(edit: can't tell if I spelled the user wrong or if they've been deleted/removed after their last post)

 

[Old Friend]

EndsJstofiesThe Means was tragic. Suffering awful heartbreak and couldn't go on at 23.

I read Vizzy's goodbye thread not long after I first discovered the forum.

There was Jusrav(sic). I think her name was Ravenna. She was here around September and was obviously in much unbearable pain. When she said she was leaving to off herself (can't remember the method, possibly hanging), I knew she wasn't messing around.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Rounded Apathy

 

[fightingforchoice]

@Vizzy - especially ater finding the news article of his death

 

[mashka9]

@avaruus definitely. he was one of the first people to reply to my threads and although we never had a proper conversation, his death really hit. i'm very glad he's finally found peace. i think one of the reasons his death felt so personal, was that he happened to be Finnish (like me) and i felt very understood talking to him, as i knew he understood what it's like suffering with mental health in this country. may he rest in peace <3

 

[Old Friend]

Yeah, avaruus reminded me of a Finnish friend I once had. He suffered from depression too. Died of cancer.

 

[dumblosergirl]

@EndJstifiesTheMeans I'm sorry, I once said your reasoning for ctb wasn't good enough and doubted you would do it. I was wrong. I'm so, so sorry.

I miss them too. They were really friendly and it's sad seeing such a kind and gentle soul go through so much anguish. At least they're in a better place now.

 

[ForeverBroken]

I miss Sea Turtle and Ve.nin.

 

[Talvikki]

Yes @Dead Meat and @Smart No More

 

[Sylveon]

@ve.nin and, well... @WonderingSoul.

 

[Groundhog_Day]

I know he's been mentioned a lot, but Avaruus really impacted me. I think he had avpd like me, but was more kind, intelligent and self aware than me.

I hope to be as brave, logical and decisive as he was.

 

[Abyssal]

I miss you @WonderingSoul

 

[Unknown21]

Actually, i miss u.

 

[Tears in Rain]

Actually, i miss u.

Yeah, only 2 weeks ago they started the thread, and now gone! Such is the way of things on this site sadly.

 

[baabbaabbaab]

@ve.nin and, well... @WonderingSoul.

I wasn't sure about ve.nin, he seemed to be struggling so much... That hurts.

LonelyKitten was my first, so hard as well. And another one, around the same time but I can't remember the name...

 

[piddincir]

alexx_m - she never posted on here but we struck up a friendship after a message she send me. I know she's gone but I miss talking to her everyday. She was a ray of light to me in a black hole. Her life mattered and even though she wasn't as active she deserves to be remembered for the kind soul she was, may you rest in piece

 

[Readytogohome]

GasMonkey helped me immensely, also TiredHorse and Vizzy

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Wish I could have said goodbye to @Dead Meat

 

[EternalShore]

everyone who has been here for a while must miss someone at least~ hehe~ sseraphim just disappeared one day (I hope she's doing better), and I really really liked AllFoxedOut a lot and am very sad that he's gone now. :(

 

[oddetoad]

Yes @Dead Meat and @Smart No More

What happened to Smart ?

 

[IWishToDie]

@Vizzy - especially ater finding the news article of his death

Agree. Without the poverty and schizophrenia, he would have been a genius scientist or something. RIP.

 

[fightingforchoice]

Agree. Without the poverty and schizophrenia, he would have been a genius scientist or something. RIP.

Definitely! I have printed out his inert gas guide for when the time comes for me! Poor guy, I didn't realise he was in poverty alongside suffering schizophrenia

 

[ClaudeCTTE]

When I first joined this forum and vented about my relationships issues, a user by the name ClaudeCTTE messaged me, and we always had these deep conversations about music, mental disorders and talked about suicide as well, I felt bad for the things he had to go through and enjoyed talking to him. He helped me understand that I might suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder which I found to be really helpfull in identifying what causes me the most pain in this miserable existence. Not only that he linked me usefull resources on how to actually CTB and I got more education on my hanging method which I found helpfull. One day I told him my bestie came back to me he was quite glad and became a bit more distant sadly, but I felt like I still wanted to be his friend because he helped me so much, however she left me again(this time forever) shortly after and I never got a chance to tell him this because one day he just vanished and sadly never found out the truth and he probably believed I was happy. I don't know if he actually CTB because I couldn't find a goodbye thread and who knows what might have happened to him? Not knowing made me sad, and the last thing he ever said to me was "I need a break... hopefully it's eternal..." at which I responded "Sorry about it all, I will let you take a break. Message me any time you like." this was the last we ever spoke, I regret saying this because he was probably hinting at his suicide, but why be so vauge at last? I hope he has found his peace now as he was a kind person and I want him to be remembered for being a great guy who has helped me a lot since joining this website.

Rest In Peace ClaudteCTTE

And it wasn't like that, because of course, my body will always ask me: "Are you sure you want to do it even though you can still enjoy things?"

And the cycle will continue over and over again...

I can think of a million things, but I definitely won't do any because that's just who I am... I'll think about living or dying but I'll surely do nothing...

The day I find peace will be the day my body no longer dares to stop me!

 

[Abyssal]

@DearAgony i know I'm not alone in how much I miss you. You made me laugh during a shitty Christmas and new years.

 

[quietwater]

Like someone you knew on here but they CTB or left the site ? The first time I came here, I remember seeing a lot of wonderful people who kept making threads that I found so relatable but I don't see them any more.

@Lost_my_soul is a person I miss. I never interacted much with them, but I read some of their posts and they seemed kind. They DMd me a few days ago before their goodbye thread and ctb – therefore their account deactivation. And I didn't reply.

I didn't reply because I didn't log here in that time period, and when I did it was too late. I regret it so so much. I wish I could go back and just talk with them a bit, just to know them. Maybe they wanted to tell me something, maybe they didn't, but I will never know. I wish I could've listened to them and talked with them.

 

[Readytogo246]

Vizzy

 

[Aim]

I would have to say avaruus and the girl from Kenya. I didn't personally know them. But when people share, you kinda get an idea. So young and just idk. It's hard to fiend the right words, really. Hopefully they found the peace they desperately were looking for.

 

[Minsu]

@mikoo