YourLocalSadGirly
Member
- May 6, 2024
- 16
I'm just looking for some hope that things will get better despite every person I ask saying it doesn't. Recovered from being suicidal, depressed, anxiety, addiction, ed, etc.
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Melly
Pain receptacle
- Aug 13, 2019
- 50
I'm not fully recovered, and I doubt you'll find them on this forum (especially on the suicide discussion section) because they don't have much in common with people here anymore and it's heart wrenching to make friends here and see them die. But my life went from unbearable to usually bearable.
The only thing that changed were my circumstances. Made irl and online friends and connections, got a hobby and passion project, got disability aid. I don't actively have a reason to die anymore and although I still feel suicidal (force of habit), I usually want to live. I recommend you find a community of people you care about and who care about you. If you're suicidal you realistically don't have much to lose, so you might as well start throwing shit at the wall and see what sticks.
The only thing that changed were my circumstances. Made irl and online friends and connections, got a hobby and passion project, got disability aid. I don't actively have a reason to die anymore and although I still feel suicidal (force of habit), I usually want to live. I recommend you find a community of people you care about and who care about you. If you're suicidal you realistically don't have much to lose, so you might as well start throwing shit at the wall and see what sticks.
blackbeauty
I hope you won't completely forget me.
- Sep 24, 2024
- 55
I remember when I was 16 I wrote a letter to myself noting down all the reasons why I felt suicidal and I ended the letter with if I still feel the same when I'm 21 maybe it's never going to get better and that I should end my life. When I read the letter on my 21st birthday, honestly, I didn't feel the same anymore and I didn't have the same suicidal impulse in me and I observed that it can get better.
Same as Melly's comment above, what changed for me was my circumstances which gave me a chance to put distance between me and the source of my pain, make new friends, and pursue hobbies. I'm not fully recovered too but everyday I choose to not end my life I am winning the battle.
Hope you take it one day at a time!
Same as Melly's comment above, what changed for me was my circumstances which gave me a chance to put distance between me and the source of my pain, make new friends, and pursue hobbies. I'm not fully recovered too but everyday I choose to not end my life I am winning the battle.
Hope you take it one day at a time!
LostLily
Why do I exist?
- Nov 18, 2024
- 755
I find my suicidalness ebb and flows. It always with me but at points in time it grows or decreases. I was mostly gone when I finally got stable employment , started speaking to a counsellor, and focus hanging out with friend or going to events.
But lately it it became overwhelming again after a bunch of things. Had a falling out with my counsellor, stressed at work , varies health problems and Trump getting ready re-elected.
But lately it it became overwhelming again after a bunch of things. Had a falling out with my counsellor, stressed at work , varies health problems and Trump getting ready re-elected.
Well, the thing about getting better, at least for me is that, you are bound to get better but it doesn't stay like that forever. I think my depression comes from neurology rather than trauma or past events, so there isn't really a "solution", you just get better at seeing past it, whether by yourself or with professionals.
So in a way, no it doesn't always get better, but it gets easier to handle and you can use that as a grip on depression. Although this is just my experience, I'm no psychologist.
So in a way, no it doesn't always get better, but it gets easier to handle and you can use that as a grip on depression. Although this is just my experience, I'm no psychologist.
I have been estranged from my entire family for more than 20 years. I took a chance recently and reached out to one of my kids. He was receptive and we now have a beautiful relationship that no one is going to be able to challenge again. (My mother told me once that she would take my kids away from me if it was the last thing she did. Once they became teenagers she influenced them and they all decided to "go" with her. Now that she has finally died -- enjoying hell bitch?? 
-- I have spoken to 2 of my kids. One son has mental health issues of his own and it went really poorly. I will probably never see him again.) But this son and I are strong as we ever were. I am beyond ecstatic! And even though I think about ctb every day, I could NEVER now. Because it would break him. So ... Here I am.
-- I have spoken to 2 of my kids. One son has mental health issues of his own and it went really poorly. I will probably never see him again.) But this son and I are strong as we ever were. I am beyond ecstatic! And even though I think about ctb every day, I could NEVER now. Because it would break him. So ... Here I am.
