HopefulSleep
Wants to sleep
- Apr 24, 2023
- 888
I tried some meditation tutorials but it didn't work and I am too hyperactive for it, it doesn't feel relaxing at all, I just want to do nothing but then I feel empty in a painful way and my thoughts and memories hurt me.
They always say I should imagine my dream world but I don't have that since my childhood got ended I can't imagine a world that would give me joy only not existing or feeling like a baby or small child would but I can't just feel like that only by thinking about it.
Sleeping also hurts only nightmares, I just want to rest from everything but as I said then I feel empty and memories I don't want and thoughts, I think I can only really rest by ctb.
They always say I should imagine my dream world but I don't have that since my childhood got ended I can't imagine a world that would give me joy only not existing or feeling like a baby or small child would but I can't just feel like that only by thinking about it.
Sleeping also hurts only nightmares, I just want to rest from everything but as I said then I feel empty and memories I don't want and thoughts, I think I can only really rest by ctb.