If I could go home again and restart life a third (?) time, that'd be swell :o
With intensive effort, daydreaming has been nice for a few moments a day.
Takes too much time and resources though, and isn't sustainable long-term.
Would only get worse on a longer timeframe... *shudders*
Not just everything deteriorating around you and lack of maintenance of the important stuff, but also losing all sense, all connection(s) of when you still lived in reality, making it more and more impossible to return - might as well take my chances with death at that point.