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JustABitTired

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Dec 26, 2022
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Hi everyone,

I know it's an odd question. I have SN from a meat curing website and I'm not sure if it's the right kind.

I would like to CTB this Friday or Saturday (I'm waiting on some news to drop around then.) I don't want to work myself up to an attempt and fail.

At the same time, I wake up, if I can barely sleep through the panic attacks, and cry almost every morning. It's getting more intense and feel like I'm having some sort of episode.

I'd like to CTB today honestly, and I'm struggling to hold off my urges given this break up. So in anticipation to this weekend, is it worth me just trying a little bit to see the effect? How much is enough of a non-lethal dose, and what markers should I look for that it's the right type?

I'm currently holding back the urge to CTB through 2 Zops + a couple shots of alcohol that put me in a nice sleep. But this isn't sustainable and you can't really do it back to back (I get a nasty migraine). I'm also quickly running out of Zopiclone and it's hard to get more without tipping off alarm bells.
 
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If it's not "lab-quality" and only from a "meat curing site" it may not be suitable. SN is used in food industries but in very low amounts so they are NOT poisonious. There is a way to check it with blood and aquarium tests. Sorry I don't have links right now. you may want to use the search for it!

please do you tests before you attempt, getting it from meat curing website rings some alarm bells this might fail in the end.

I hope you can find peace but please make sure you can eliminate as much failure risks as possible.
 
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You can use lab grade or food grade, with a purity of at least 95%. The formula is NaNO2.

"...if it's the right type of sodium nitrite by drinking a little bit?"
No don´t do that. This would be an experiment with an uncertain outcome.

General info:
 
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JustABitTired

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Dec 26, 2022
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Thanks everyone! I've picked up some Aquarium strips and will aim to try it out that way tonight. Hoping it's pure enough. I'm not sure I can go through trying to source the right thing as I looked for this one for a while, and I would like to CTB soon.
 
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Sounds like it could be Prague salt, specifically for curing meat with a low concentration of SN but hopefully not and enough of a high purity to CTB.
 

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