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JustABitTired
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- Dec 26, 2022
- 16
Hi everyone,
I know it's an odd question. I have SN from a meat curing website and I'm not sure if it's the right kind.
I would like to CTB this Friday or Saturday (I'm waiting on some news to drop around then.) I don't want to work myself up to an attempt and fail.
At the same time, I wake up, if I can barely sleep through the panic attacks, and cry almost every morning. It's getting more intense and feel like I'm having some sort of episode.
I'd like to CTB today honestly, and I'm struggling to hold off my urges given this break up. So in anticipation to this weekend, is it worth me just trying a little bit to see the effect? How much is enough of a non-lethal dose, and what markers should I look for that it's the right type?
I'm currently holding back the urge to CTB through 2 Zops + a couple shots of alcohol that put me in a nice sleep. But this isn't sustainable and you can't really do it back to back (I get a nasty migraine). I'm also quickly running out of Zopiclone and it's hard to get more without tipping off alarm bells.
I know it's an odd question. I have SN from a meat curing website and I'm not sure if it's the right kind.
I would like to CTB this Friday or Saturday (I'm waiting on some news to drop around then.) I don't want to work myself up to an attempt and fail.
At the same time, I wake up, if I can barely sleep through the panic attacks, and cry almost every morning. It's getting more intense and feel like I'm having some sort of episode.
I'd like to CTB today honestly, and I'm struggling to hold off my urges given this break up. So in anticipation to this weekend, is it worth me just trying a little bit to see the effect? How much is enough of a non-lethal dose, and what markers should I look for that it's the right type?
I'm currently holding back the urge to CTB through 2 Zops + a couple shots of alcohol that put me in a nice sleep. But this isn't sustainable and you can't really do it back to back (I get a nasty migraine). I'm also quickly running out of Zopiclone and it's hard to get more without tipping off alarm bells.