Is the time running fast for you or very slow?

[noname223]

My friends always tell me how fast they experiencing the time running. I simply don't get it. Not for me. Every day is suffering, crisis mode and existential problems.
I am worrying so much my sorrows overwhelm me.
I currently have gotten more somatic problems. Additionally to all my mental problems. My friends say they are overwhelmed by my daily talking about my daily suffering. And I think I should leave SS due to the NYT article. So many of my coping mechanisms are shit now. I probably should even stop gaming because my fingers get numb from it.
I would now need a forum like this more than ever. But it seems to become too heated for me. I don't know what to do...
I recognize I more and more subconsciously cope by thinking more about suicide. I have the urge to watch David Forster Wallace videos about depression and suicide. This also happened during my last severe depression.

 

[nunex]

Time passes super super super slow to me, since I have gotten my illness.

A day feels like a week, and tho I have been ill for a year and half, it feels like 2 fucking decades

 

[demuic]

Both at the same time really.

Everday invidiual day passes by glacially slow, but I will blink and already months or a year will have gone by, which puts me in a state of disbelief.

 

[HiImPaul]

Both at the same time really.

Everday invidiual day passes by glacially slow, but I will blink and already months or a year will have gone by, which puts me in a state of disbelief.

Same here. Every day is so long and agonizing. Yet it's already been 3 months since I became suicidal. Feels like the blink of an eye.

 

[noname223]

Same here. Every day is so long and agonizing. Yet it's already been 3 months since I became suicidal. Feels like the blink of an eye.

I am suicidal since almost a decade. With 1,5 years break. It feels so long.

 

[nunex]

I guess time passing is slow when you can't find enjoyment in anything. Its a bit related to Dopamine

 

[HiImPaul]

I am suicidal since almost a decade. With 1,5 years break. It feels so long.

I can't imagine enduring this for that long. What caused the 1 1/2 year break if you don't mind me asking.

 

[noname223]

I can't imagine enduring this for that long. What caused the 1 1/2 year break if you don't mind me asking.

A manic episode and a bit of hope due to a new medication. These times were seperate.

 

[chocolatebar]

The hours pass too slowly, but the years, so fast. What's wrong with my time perception?

 

[Snake of Eden]

Kinda fast which is weird giving that im not really doing anything

 

[Grant Me Death]

Medium speed.

 

[Death is beautiful]

Time flies fast enough, this is the seventh month I've been sitting on this site

 

[wanttogetonthebus]

Agonizingly slow. I just want to cut to cut to the chase. Will I live or will I die. I have some last ditch attempts I'm trying to find a way to make life barely worth struggling for, but I'm impatient and it's hard struggling each day to do things. The clocks ticking down and I wish it would hurry up.

 

[Buried_Kid]

It actually runs pretty fast to me. Anyway I don't really think that's good.
I have many responsabilities right now, and as I don't do any of what I have to do, I know I'm gonna feel even worse in the future, and when my life is fucked up I'll feel like time runs a lot slower.

Anyway this feeling of fear doesn't make me want to do my work. I just can't do anything to make my life be more ejoyable. And therefore I'm making other people's lifes a lot harder.

 

[FuneralCry]

Very slow. I live an empty existence, in a way it is like I have already died but I am still breathing. There is nothing here for me. I look forward to eternal sleep.

 

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waiting for next saturday and i do nothing all day so very very slow

 

[diinasours]

time is not existent to me anymore. i forget so many things throughout my day or my week. time moves fast and slow, depends on the day. its all so weird, its like im living but im not even there.

 

[Hercules]

Time passes so slow. It is almost like time has stopped. To me, the last 3 years honestly feels like 50 years have passed.

 

[Dear Agony]

I remember I was inpatient during New Years when I had just turned 17, and I commented with a nurse that time had been passing so fast. Her answer was that she had heard once time passes very fast when the end of the times is approaching (you know those silly beliefs about the end of the world having a known date and etc) and I always kind of interpreted that as my time is getting near year by year, which would make sense.
I'm dissociated like 100% of the time lmao so I feel like time passes very fast. It's not just that though. I feel like I'm living in the same, torturous day and it'll have no end. I think this is partly because I don't want to die, I simply have no choice but to.

 

[tieiwi]

I kinda just disassociate then when I need to be somewhere I'll check the date and be like oh ok so that's what today is, I can't really say how fast or slow time is moving for me it's more like I don't feel it at all

 

[Maxivee]

Very very slow for me

 

[bed]

Both at the same time really.

Everday invidiual day passes by glacially slow, but I will blink and already months or a year will have gone by, which puts me in a state of disbelief.

This is how i feel.

Probably has a lot to do with having no routine/schedule for me. It's depressing looking back and continually feeling like you're just getting worse but yet feel so trapped in your body.

 

[eternalmelancholy]

This is how i feel.

Probably has a lot to do with having no routine/schedule for me. It's depressing looking back and continually feeling like you're just getting worse but yet feel so trapped in your body.

Same here. Everyday is a chore to get through but the weeks and months have been flying by. I just want this misery to end already. I have everything ready to go. It is just picking the day.

 

[bed]

Same here. Everyday is a chore to get through but the weeks and months have been flying by. I just want this misery to end already. I have everything ready to go. It is just picking the day.

my day will probably be impulsive, although my decision has been rational.

 

[eternalmelancholy]

my day will probably be impulsive, although my decision has been rational.

Beautiful said. Everything leading up to this point has been rational. But I think the final step might take some impulsivity. Because at some point you just have to do it.

 

[yive]

Both at the same time really.

Everday invidiual day passes by glacially slow, but I will blink and already months or a year will have gone by, which puts me in a state of disbelief.

something like this. at this point - extremely slow and painful, but at the same time i can't believe that the years have passed so quickly, i remember some events as if it were yesterday...

 

[eternalmelancholy]

something like this. at this point - extremely slow and painful, but at the same time i can't believe that the years have passed so quickly, i remember some events as if it were yesterday...

Did you guys ever imagine that you would last this long? This is why I need to go soon before I lose my nerve. Otherwise another 10 years might flash right before my eyes.

 

[ClownMe]

Extremely slow, when you have no passion and interests in life, it's unbearable.

 

[eternalmelancholy]

Extremely slow, when you have no passion and interests in life, it's unbearable.

People always say to pick up new hobbies and try to meet new people. But I found that I can't relate to most people and a lot of hobbies require other people to enjoy. The past few years have just been a blur. Like one really long week. When everyday is exactly the same it is hard to get a sense of time.

 

[creaturecomforts]

Time feels like it moves way too fast. I feel like I'm losing out on life just sitting here doing... nothing as my life passes me by.