Ultracheese

Ultracheese

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Dec 1, 2022
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In a couple of hours, I'll be taking a flight out of state where I'll probably CTB within the week or so. My stomach hurts terribly and I think it's my body's chosen method to get me to not go through it. Honestly I don't even want to go through with it, but I have to for my own sake and for the sake of everyone around me. I don't want to die but the more I'm alive, the more I seem to hurt people.
 
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Pidgeons_Sparrows

Pidgeons_Sparrows

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Apr 16, 2023
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yeah i feel that way too sometimes ): its called psychosomatic symptoms. when your psyche affects your body physically
the human stomach might aswell be a second brain, considering how well it is connected to it.
 
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miserableforever

miserableforever

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Oct 23, 2020
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I have that feeling constantly, been having it for weeks now. It's awful and I could puke for no reason other than being awake even. That achy sensation can mean stress or fear. I wish you the best.
 
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AllFoxedOut

AllFoxedOut

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Jun 7, 2023
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When I imagine the people I lost I get a pain through my chest. The used above me is right, they're called psychosomatic and are very normal.
 
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LaVieEnRose

LaVieEnRose

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Did something happen that made you feel more certain about CTBing?
 
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Ultracheese

Ultracheese

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Dec 1, 2022
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Did something happen that made you feel more certain about CTBing?
Things seem to be going too well. I don't know, I just don't want to be alive when it all comes crashing down, if that makes any sense.
 
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LaVieEnRose

LaVieEnRose

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Jul 23, 2022
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Things seem to be going too well. I don't know, I just don't want to be alive when it all comes crashing down, if that makes any sense.
Is it the likelihood of it all coming crashing down greater than the likelihood of things continuing to go well?
 
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helplessufferer

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Apr 24, 2023
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if you have the slightest desire to live despite everything, i think you shouldn't cbt. you should first exhaust all of your options imho. when it comes to ones around you, don't end your life for anybody else, only consider yourself in this process. anyway if this is your last decision hope it all goes smooth and peaceful
 
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