Discussion Is the cause of you wanting to CTB you, other people, or things?

[ChildrensITV]

1. Me
2. Other people
3. Things
4. Situational
5. Physical

Is your problem something you can run away from, emigrate away from, buy your way out of, etc?

I guess my question is: is your problem YOU, rather than others around you. The answer might not be black or white, I understand.

My problem is me. You could put me on a desert island with one house, ship supplies to me once a week, give me internet access, electric, etc, everything except having to see another human again, and I would still not be happy. You could allow me to nominate a person to live with me in that house and would still not be happy. I am mentally broken with no fix whatsoever.

Having said that, I think to an extent, all 5 affect me.

This is an unordered garbage rant by the way. I'm a fucking idiot.

 

[KarmicRain]

I can't really run from myself so I just spend all the time I have trying to forget I exist.

 

[cutejellybean]

It's mostly mental health in my case, but one of the main things is autism. I hate that there's no cure or treatment for this, and I just have to accept the fact that I can never communicate or connect with others normally. I feel like an alien

 

[expiredfckmeat]

I cycle through a few. It seems like every time I learn to live with something undesirable about myself, someone else all of a sudden has a problem with it and tries to undo all the work I did. Probably not as malicious as it feels, mostly conditioning from how I was treated growing up, but it's stuck in there good. Makes it impossible to deal with the situational stuff (lonely as fuu).

 

[Octavia]

All of them…

 

[sparkle]

I think we can attribute our problems to all of them in varying proportion, for me it's a bit of everything.

 

[FuneralCry]

The thing that I see as being the problem is life in itself, I personally despise existing and I see wanting suicide as being a logical response to being aware of the reality of existence. I could never wish to be trapped inside this decaying flesh prison, I see it as being a burden being conscious and I only wish for nothingness, I despise this harmful world which is full of risks and I would prefer for this existence to be forgotten about, I see no value in delaying the inevitable. Existing isn't for me, it's something so futile and unappealing and I would rather avoid all suffering.

 

[hellispink]

Mostly all of the reasons. But you don't really need a reason. This world is rotten. Everyone is selfish, everyone wants money fame and stepping on others. Politicians do nothing but steal. People have no empathy. Oceans are dying animals are dying because of humans. Children are starving while the rich buys animal skin clothing. I think even that is more than enough. This place is not good.