Venting Is that my reward?

[Unbearable Mr. Bear]

So I wake up early, 7AM, am actually pretty OK considering I had a panic attack yesterday and only slept like 6 hours. Get some coffee, and go play some switch cause I wanna enjoy my life. 30 minutes later, my mom wakes up.

It's okay at first, but she starts talking about a kid being bullied that had a voice in his head telling him to CTB and his parents are neglectful and I'm like WHY ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT THAT? I don't care, I wanna enjoy my life, I wanna have energy so I can be someone that others can rely upon for support later, SHUT UP.

But I do engage, and I tell the parents are probably the culprits, and she's like OH BUT HE'S SO BEAUTIFUL HE ISN'T EVEN THAT FAT, and I'm like what, bitch? Are you a fucking dolt? Since when that matters? "Oh he wants to suicide BUT HES SO CUTE".

Anyway, I just tell her to her face, which was screaming on my ear while I was trying to enjoy my fucking day, that she's being bothersome. She doesn't care. I have to stop playing and go to my room and she's STILL SCREAMING to her dumb instagram posts that reinforce her idiocy. Also obviously she has her phone on max volume. My room is just beside her.

Now she stopped, but I'm sure if I ever step back there she'll just start again. Don't bother telling me what I should have done, I know what I should have done, and I did it. I left her alone, and yet, she's having fun, after ruining mine.

Now I know why I hate weekends: I'm home together with the whore that, even when blatantly said that SHE SHOULD NOT SCREAM IN MY EAR, she still does. She has no excuse, and even if she had, I DON'T FUCKING CARE. I wish she was dead. I wish I killed her right here right now. Her voice is like a needle in my ear, can't even hear my own thoughts.

Somebody help me, somebody come here and take me away, please, I can't take this anymore. Please, I'll give my money, I'll be your slave, your sex slave even. You can even harvest my organs, I don't care, just YANK ME FROM THIS FUCKING HELLHOLE!!!

 

[bankai]

Oh dude.that's a brutal post.I'm so sorry.I'm just so sorry

A lot of people are stuck in their personal hells. I think you're one of them.

Please understand your situation is not forever. Things will change. One day you will have autonomy. You will live on your own and be happier.

Till that day comes, please try to bear with it. I swear I didn't make that joke, it just happened.

 

[Unbearable Mr. Bear]

Oh dude.that's a brutal post.I'm so sorry.I'm just so sorry

A lot of people are stuck in their personal hells. I think you're one of them.

Please understand your situation is not forever. Things will change. One day you will have autonomy. You will live on your own and be happier.

Till that day comes, please try to bear with it. I swear I didn't make that joke, it just happened.

Thanks for the kind words. I'm weak right now but I'm happy you care.

 

[bankai]

Thanks for the kind words. I'm weak right now but I'm happy you care.

Darling, I'll always care, even if It seems I don't.I'm damaged too.My heart's so broken because of someone that passed away recently.

But yeah,you're never alone.Most of the people here care.

 

[anonymous2025]

That was difficult to read. @bankai is right, we all have our own personal hell that we have to deal with on a daily basis.and it's an awful way to live a life. hopefully you can find some peace some way.

 

[Pluto]

 

[Mooncry]

You're so sweet, Bear. A little unhinged sometimes, but justifiably so. I am also unhinged, so I mean no disrespect lol

I'm also in the camp of bitch mom who I despise, but thankfully, she's no longer in my life and never will be again. I hope you can get out of that toxic living situation sometime soon because I know it's chipping away at your sanity. I know what it's like. Hugs from an angel cat from outer space.

 

[Unbearable Mr. Bear]

You're so sweet, Bear. A little unhinged sometimes, but justifiably so. I am also unhinged, so I mean no disrespect lol

I'm also in the camp of bitch mom who I despise, but thankfully, she's no longer in my life and never will be again. I hope you can get out of that toxic living situation sometime soon because I know it's chipping away at your sanity. I know what it's like. Hugs from an angel cat from outer space.

That was difficult to read. @bankai is right, we all have our own personal hell that we have to deal with on a daily basis.and it's an awful way to live a life. hopefully you can find some peace some way.

Darling, I'll always care, even if It seems I don't.I'm damaged too.My heart's so broken because of someone that passed away recently.

But yeah,you're never alone.Most of the people here care.

Thanks for the kind words, everyone. Sometimes my mind betrays me and I just think everyone is out to get me, that everything I do is disliked and unloved. I know, rationally, it isn't the case, but chemicals don't care. When they wanna flow, they flow.

In the end, I'm most distressed by the fact that it all takes away energy I could use to be better, or at least to be mama bear. It fill me with joy that I can give love here without being judged for being creepy or weird in a way that makes people get away from me.

 

[eattwinkiesseejesus]

I'm sorry about your mom and your living situation, I know what it's like to feel trapped
*hugs from me to you*
From one mama bear to another - even mama bears need to be held and comforted sometimes

 

[Unbearable Mr. Bear]

I'm sorry about your mom and your living situation, I know what it's like to feel trapped
*hugs from me to you*
From one mama bear to another - even mama bears need to be held and comforted sometimes

Oh, dear, you are such a comforting sight. *hugs* I want all kinds of good things to happen to you, dearie, always.