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oohiniyorafaad

Member
Dec 18, 2021
43
Do you believe in your heart of hearts no matter where life takes you, that you are destined to end your life? I have thought this for a very long time. I feel it is my destiny.
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
1,870
It's suicide or a health problem takes me out before I can off myself.

I get seizures, I could easily die in the middle of one. A recent MRI found a small growth in my brain [possibly related to the seizures] so who knows if that's something malignant.
 
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Polyxo

Polyxo

Ring Ding Dong!
Mar 1, 2025
141
Yes. I've had this feeling since 12 years old.
 
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wham311

Enlightened
Mar 1, 2025
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No much much much worse
 
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schizozoomr

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Jul 5, 2025
14
I have never wanted to grow old, I feel there is no point in being in pain all the time while your family mugs you off for younger generations. Watching your country as you know it being shredded. Couldn't do it. I am not living over 40
 
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Seaofsleep

Seaofsleep

Member
Jun 21, 2025
23
Yes. I am passed 'why' and concentrating on 'how'. The latter is a lot less exhausting.
 
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oohiniyorafaad

Member
Dec 18, 2021
43
It's suicide or a health problem takes me out before I can off myself.

I get seizures, I could easily die in the middle of one. A recent MRI found a small growth in my brain [possibly related to the seizures] so who knows if that's something malignant.
i have a seizure disorder as well ❤️ I've thought about that too. having a seizure in my sleep and never waking up again
 
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Eudaimonic

Eudaimonic

I want to fade away.
Aug 11, 2023
883
It seems so
 
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FishRain3469

FishRain3469

Specialist
Mar 12, 2025
339
Uùughh... Yes And yes to everything.... I Hope and I Motherfckn pray I am not ' destined ' for Death.. But yett, in my Heart of fucking Hearts. . I Know that there is No return or other way Out for me... fck. FML. I get it. 🙏
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
44,074
To permanently cease existing and never suffer in this dreadful, torturous existence ever again is certainly all I'm meant for, I just never should had suffered at all and as long as I exist I'll only wish and hope to be gone.

I wish I could have the option to die painlessly in an guaranteed way and I always suffer so much and see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have that to finally escape from the suffering of this cruel, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake, I'd just never wish to exist. To me existence really is an abomination that just causes harm and suffering torturing existing beings until non-existence takes away all anyway and as well as that I find it such a deeply undesirable burden to exist, I'd just never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather all I hope for is the peace of an eternal sleep where finally all is forgotten.
 
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LastDayOnEarth

Student
May 20, 2025
170
Deep down I always knew that I was gonna end myself
 
Fall_Apart

Fall_Apart

Student
May 22, 2023
131
Absolutely yes. This is one of the few certainties I have. It's just a matter of time.
 
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bl33ding_heart

Borderline
Jun 24, 2025
161
Do you believe in your heart of hearts no matter where life takes you, that you are destined to end your life? I have thought this for a very long time. I feel it is my destiny.
I feel like no matter what I do to improve my life and manage my mental illness I'll always have a deep underlying sadness and emptiness. I haven't even tried to improve my situation yet and I'm willing to give life a chance. But I have a feeling I'm gonna end up killing myself at some point. Whether it be in 10 years, 20 years, or even possibly 1 year or less.
 
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elaineparks

elaineparks

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Jul 13, 2025
18
I've always felt like I would take my own life , ever since I was 8 yrs
 
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dasmurphy

Member
Mar 19, 2025
10
Yes, ever since I was 9 yo or such; my whole life I got these two 'mantras' i the back of my head: The story about Johnny was never meant to be long - and; I always knew my death would be violent...
 

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