Discussion Is SN really peaceful?

[Walilamdzi]

I'm by no means saying that this has happened, but I worry that there could be motive for people posting fake positive reviews of peacefulness of SN to encourage more people go ahead with it, in order wait for other people to try it, and read their accounts of it and not risk it themselves before gathering more information.

 

[clover___]

woah. Could you explain everything that happened, pretty please? Would be very helpful for others.
Timetables with quantities, what you felt, why it failed...
Thanks!

@clover___ ,

What happened ? Did someone discover you ?

I talked about it more in these threads, I don't really have much in the way of precise data of timings since I was unconscious for a lot of the time after I took the sn and I didn't have a phone or anything on me in the ambulance or at the hospital.

Most importantly, how are you doing now?

This happened over Halloween and since it was considered a particularly "serious" attempt - whatever that means - in the eyes of mental health services, it did result in me being under more scrutiny for a while. I didn't really get anything more than what I already had in terms of long-term support, though. It was a painful time for those around me, and I've been trying to do better and put more effort into recovery instead of resorting to self-harm and suicide, for their sake. That has only gotten me so far though, and a lack of material improvement in my circumstances as well as some major setbacks has me in a pretty similar place to before as of writing.
One thing I will say is that the common claim that sn is tasteless or has a pleasant, only slightly salty taste in solution was not anywhere close to my experience. Maybe it wouldn't have been so bad if I'd put less in my water but I had a pretty hard time getting it down.

 

[BleedingHeart]

Whose experience do you mean? To be clear, I was the one who took the stuff. Was very nearly successful but medical attention arrived sooner than I had anticipated they could. I posted about it live in the shoutbox at the time but that seems to be gone now.

If you don't mind sharing, were you the one who called for medical attention or did you get found?

 

[Duckup]

I talked about it more in these threads, I don't really have much in the way of precise data of timings since I was unconscious for a lot of the time after I took the sn and I didn't have a phone or anything on me in the ambulance or at the hospital.

This happened over Halloween and since it was considered a particularly "serious" attempt - whatever that means - in the eyes of mental health services, it did result in me being under more scrutiny for a while. I didn't really get anything more than what I already had in terms of long-term support, though. It was a painful time for those around me, and I've been trying to do better and put more effort into recovery instead of resorting to self-harm and suicide, for their sake. That has only gotten me so far though, and a lack of material improvement in my circumstances as well as some major setbacks has me in a pretty similar place to before as of writing.
One thing I will say is that the common claim that sn is tasteless or has a pleasant, only slightly salty taste in solution was not anywhere close to my experience. Maybe it wouldn't have been so bad if I'd put less in my water but I had a pretty hard time getting it down.

Sorry, you said you seized after waking up and it was euphoric? Why did you wake up and how long were you out? Did you follow the 48hour regimen or stat or did you even take anything besides SN? And you took 50g?? Wouldnt that make you vomit pretty much instantly? How are you feeling now and why do you personally think it failed? Was there any lasting damage? Would you ever try this again?

I know it's a lot of questions, but like you were/are struggling with issues that made you want to ctb, a lot of people here still are and you could offer some peace of mind to the people by answering these questions, especially after you kind of abstractly described your failure with the prefferred method of many people here, scaring many of us. I don't mean to offend and understand that you might not want to talk about it here right now sence you probably have had to discuss this a lot IRL post ctb attempt or are too apathic to endulge in a conversation you are tiered of or that makes you sader, but please, whenever you can, disclose a little more about the attempt. Sorry again, if this bothers you...

 

[anonbpdgirl]

What if you didn't sleep for two days, took the SN, then just let yourself pass out to sleep? Your body would be desperate enough for sleep it might go so quickly you'd sleep through any unpleasant symptoms, no? Or is this just, uh, my pipe dream?!