Discussion Is recovery unrealistic?

[Lara Francis]

Hi
I recently posted a goodbye thread under the recovery title but I am struggling again.I am sorry! .
You will all know my story and troubles which I have well documented throughout my time here.
I am feeling very low today due to the social services restrictions on my son.
I am frustrated with all their crap and my boy held onto me tight when the visit came to an end today and would not let go.I did well to hold back the tears because I did not want to upset him further.
In the past, I have thought I was fooling myself in believing things would get better but once my son was taken into care,I had to adapt a more positive mindset to have him potentially returned to me in Dec.I really want to fight for him but once again ,I am fighting my own overwhelming thoughts of suicide.
Once it has you in its grasp it never let's go and maybe I am so stupid to realise it ever would .maybe it was and still is my destiny.who knows.!
I feel so helpless,tired and loosing faith and my grip on life.
Do you think recovery is possible even if it's what you really want ?.

 

[Ben]

I'm sorry you're going through such pain right now. I don't belive you should ever ignore your curiosity of recovery. I can't sit here and tell you that everyone can be saved..I wish I could.

My hope is the ones who have chosen death, were at peace with their decision up until the very end. I hope they didn't pass with a curiosity of the potential of recovery. I feel the decision to KTB should be made once it's crystal clear it's the only way to end the pain.

I'm not sure what you have already gone through in terms of receiving help, but if you think it has even a small chance of helping, look into it. Don't leave with curiosity's if you can help it.

 

[Ashpac]

I personally believe recovery is very possible for some people.
I think when you lose hope thats when the feelings of ending your life become very strong but if you have some hope then keep fighting.
I know what it feels like to be in pain everyday, it really sucks.
Its a constant battle.
''Nothing in this world thats worth having, comes easy'' thats a true quote, it even applies to my life.
I know what you mean about the destiny thing though, I honestly believe some people no matter how hard they try to stay alive are forced to end it.

 

[Kogoruhn]

Maybe you should try using reddit, suicidewatch. Sometimes i read it and find people grateful for the help received that changed their minds. Its never too late to recover

 

[Morning Angel]

Hey Lara:) good to hear from you again. Don't worry about leaving/coming back. A lot of us have done it, including me.

I've been following your story for a bit now, and I understand the hopelessness you may be feeling. I wish I had more info about your situation and how social services is justifying their case in keeping your son. No obligation to share but is it something you could tell us more about? Do they stipulate what you'd need to do in order to have him back? How often does it happen that parents regain custody?

December is about 9 weeks away. It is a while but I do think it is possible for you to make it until then if you can formulate some kind of plan for yourself. Of course, recovery requires many supports including a job, possibly welfare, social supports, a trusted therapist and so on. Seeking these also requires time and patience.

Having said that though, I understand that every parent has a breaking point and suicide is still an option for you. The heart of every question parents on here deal with is clear: can you live for your son even if you don't want to live yourself?

 

[Morning Angel]

I'm sorry you're going through such pain right now. I don't belive you should ever ignore your curiosity of recovery. I can't sit here and tell you that everyone can be saved..I wish I could.

My hope is the ones who have chosen death, were at peace with their decision up until the very end. I hope they didn't pass with a curiosity of the potential of recovery. I feel the decision to KTB should be made once it's crystal clear it's the only way to end the pain.

I'm not sure what you have already gone through in terms of receiving help, but if you think it has even a small chance of helping, look into it. Don't leave with curiosity's if you can help it.

Wise words

 

[Avicii]

Hi
I recently posted a goodbye thread under the recovery title but I am struggling again.I am sorry! .
You will all know my story and troubles which I have well documented throughout my time here.
I am feeling very low today due to the social services restrictions on my son.
I am frustrated with all their crap and my boy held onto me tight when the visit came to an end today and would not let go.I did well to hold back the tears because I did not want to upset him further.
In the past, I have thought I was fooling myself in believing things would get better but once my son was taken into care,I had to adapt a more positive mindset to have him potentially returned to me in Dec.I really want to fight for him but once again ,I am fighting my own overwhelming thoughts of suicide.
Once it has you in its grasp it never let's go and maybe I am so stupid to realise it ever would .maybe it was and still is my destiny.who knows.!
I feel so helpless,tired and loosing faith and my grip on life.
Do you think recovery is possible even if it's what you really want ?.

Nah now c'mon ??? You took steps in the right direction I mean for real when I saw your positive and upbeat post saying you were leaving like many others who wished you Godspeed on the matter I thought exactly the same think Laurs you can beat this

Ask the mods tons you or something so you can't posf or access this site

I fortunately don't have children but if I did I'd be there in shot for them would lose my legs my hands by life fot them

Please get off this site in the nicest way of asking and start this fight

If you ever want to talk person to person for support pm and I'll leave you my contact details

 

[Wantingpeace]

I'm sorry your going through this.

 

[lostinthedream]

I may be naive but I truly believe that anything is possible... I believe in magick