Lara Francis
Enlightened
- Jun 30, 2018
- 1,627
Hi
I recently posted a goodbye thread under the recovery title but I am struggling again.I am sorry! .
You will all know my story and troubles which I have well documented throughout my time here.
I am feeling very low today due to the social services restrictions on my son.
I am frustrated with all their crap and my boy held onto me tight when the visit came to an end today and would not let go.I did well to hold back the tears because I did not want to upset him further.
In the past, I have thought I was fooling myself in believing things would get better but once my son was taken into care,I had to adapt a more positive mindset to have him potentially returned to me in Dec.I really want to fight for him but once again ,I am fighting my own overwhelming thoughts of suicide.
Once it has you in its grasp it never let's go and maybe I am so stupid to realise it ever would .maybe it was and still is my destiny.who knows.!
I feel so helpless,tired and loosing faith and my grip on life.
Do you think recovery is possible even if it's what you really want ?.
I recently posted a goodbye thread under the recovery title but I am struggling again.I am sorry! .
You will all know my story and troubles which I have well documented throughout my time here.
I am feeling very low today due to the social services restrictions on my son.
I am frustrated with all their crap and my boy held onto me tight when the visit came to an end today and would not let go.I did well to hold back the tears because I did not want to upset him further.
In the past, I have thought I was fooling myself in believing things would get better but once my son was taken into care,I had to adapt a more positive mindset to have him potentially returned to me in Dec.I really want to fight for him but once again ,I am fighting my own overwhelming thoughts of suicide.
Once it has you in its grasp it never let's go and maybe I am so stupid to realise it ever would .maybe it was and still is my destiny.who knows.!
I feel so helpless,tired and loosing faith and my grip on life.
Do you think recovery is possible even if it's what you really want ?.