Meatshell
Professional Complainer
- May 16, 2023
- 39
Some relevant details before I go over my plan:
About 2.5 years ago I've made my first attempt to CTB by swallowing a bunch of what I knew were fake pills. I survived an overdose. I tried to CTB again with different pills, but knew it wouldn't work… so this one doesn't really count. Less than a year ago I tried again, this time with 4000mg worth of sleeping pills (Ambien) that I had collected for months. Unfortunately, I managed to swallow only about a tenth of it before falling asleep, as I was afraid would happen. The good news, I've had a long nap (3 days straight!) which I spent sleepwalking… and apparently hit the bathroom sink and injured myself. When I was found, in my bed, I lied that I couldn't remember what or how this happened.
Since then I've been trying to find another way out. I have a few ideas but before I get desperate enough to try them I'd like to try a method not as difficult/painful.
So months after my last attempt and with a shiny battle scar by my left eye, I think I'm onto a solid plan:
I'm gonna get hypothermia in the bathtub and, since I learned that you better have a plan B, I'm gonna use sleeping pills to ensure that if I don't get hypothermia for whatever reason I still submerge and drown. The sleeping pills will also ensure that I stay unconscious the entire time and that way the hypothermia will also kick in faster and I will die within a few hours tops.
I live by myself but people would check on me if I disappeared for 2-3 days… more than enough time for me to execute my plan.
I plan to get those silicone molds people use to make soap, each can hold approx. 1.5kg / 3.3ibs of ice, so I'm gonna prepare about 20-30kg / 44-66ibs worth of ice to fill about a third to half of the tub (rest is water).
When time comes, I plan to first take 2-3 pills and then get in a *relatively* warn water, then start placing in the water the giant ice cubes one by one, then take as many of the sleeping pills as I manage to take before drifting off with ice slowly melting away around me.
I plan to wear a hoodie over light clothing so I can withstand the initial feeling of cold.
Also, I live in a warm climate but my air conditioner is quite strong.
It's also important to note that my average body temp. is a bit lower than most people's (35-35.5°C / 95°F).
I'm also hoping that due to all these conditions I don't paradoxically undress lol, but that's the least of my worries.
How does that sound? Is my math alright? Is there something I'm missing? Or something I can do to improve my chances?
About 2.5 years ago I've made my first attempt to CTB by swallowing a bunch of what I knew were fake pills. I survived an overdose. I tried to CTB again with different pills, but knew it wouldn't work… so this one doesn't really count. Less than a year ago I tried again, this time with 4000mg worth of sleeping pills (Ambien) that I had collected for months. Unfortunately, I managed to swallow only about a tenth of it before falling asleep, as I was afraid would happen. The good news, I've had a long nap (3 days straight!) which I spent sleepwalking… and apparently hit the bathroom sink and injured myself. When I was found, in my bed, I lied that I couldn't remember what or how this happened.
Since then I've been trying to find another way out. I have a few ideas but before I get desperate enough to try them I'd like to try a method not as difficult/painful.
So months after my last attempt and with a shiny battle scar by my left eye, I think I'm onto a solid plan:
I'm gonna get hypothermia in the bathtub and, since I learned that you better have a plan B, I'm gonna use sleeping pills to ensure that if I don't get hypothermia for whatever reason I still submerge and drown. The sleeping pills will also ensure that I stay unconscious the entire time and that way the hypothermia will also kick in faster and I will die within a few hours tops.
I live by myself but people would check on me if I disappeared for 2-3 days… more than enough time for me to execute my plan.
I plan to get those silicone molds people use to make soap, each can hold approx. 1.5kg / 3.3ibs of ice, so I'm gonna prepare about 20-30kg / 44-66ibs worth of ice to fill about a third to half of the tub (rest is water).
When time comes, I plan to first take 2-3 pills and then get in a *relatively* warn water, then start placing in the water the giant ice cubes one by one, then take as many of the sleeping pills as I manage to take before drifting off with ice slowly melting away around me.
I plan to wear a hoodie over light clothing so I can withstand the initial feeling of cold.
Also, I live in a warm climate but my air conditioner is quite strong.
It's also important to note that my average body temp. is a bit lower than most people's (35-35.5°C / 95°F).
I'm also hoping that due to all these conditions I don't paradoxically undress lol, but that's the least of my worries.
How does that sound? Is my math alright? Is there something I'm missing? Or something I can do to improve my chances?