Is money a reason you want end it all?

[thatonegirl]

I think I'd probably still be suicidal, but my day-to-day would certainly be less unbearable

 

[NonEssential]

Perhaps being able afford to get a driver's license, a car, my own place, a gym membership, lessen stress overall etc, that all would help with wanting to live. Too bad I'm too dumb, lazy and anxiety ridden to get close to any of that.

 

[Tormented Soul]

Not able to safely work but also not considered legally disabled to receive assistance, one of the lowest and sometimes longest lasting forms of poverty someone in a developed country can experience. Survival basics end up happening through the mercy of sympathetic folks around you and if you can't get your story out to be heard by someone who can help you just do without up to and including death in some cases. So yeah, it can become a more legitimate of a reason once you realize that death or prison are the only other guaranteed ways out. I look back on what it was like to try to get by on a somewhat equal playing field fondly, despite how sketchy it already is and was, and envy the legally disabled folks like the OP who can at least get the $1100.

the 1100 def helps me, but id rather not hav the broken neck, chemical illnesses, anemia, heart disease, chronic pain/insomnia/fatigue, ulcers and more and be able to work a little bit.! my illnesses/injuries cost me so much money i can never pay my bills and always behind/things getting shut off, which my many of my conditions even worse. health is everything imo! id rather hav that then a billion dollars. i wish could let some of people on here hav my body for a week, then give them thier reg bodies back, it may help some see they arent so bad and it could be so much worse. i dont know, it all just sucks ;(

 

[Untoten_]

Yea, because why not? You know. That's it. Life doesn't want me, so I don't want it, my last reason for "locking in" left me on the 19th of January, I now have no direction and purpose. So why not just cbt, which is in give or take 3-4 months, just so I can get my stuff in order (and find the source for that SN).

I'm not sad, I'm not depressed, I'm just accepting that I will most likely never see the end of summer of 2026.

 

[singingcrow]

no but having money would be nice. travel the world before i die

 

[Lost Magic]

no but having money would be nice. travel the world before i die

You can do that on YouTube for free. Bald and Bankrupt is a fun guide.

 

[MaxStirner]

It is the reason for me. I have been discriminated against in just about every way for being poor. There's no accessibility in my part of the U.S. for lower income folks. No infrastructure. Just shame.

 

[XdeadfaeX]

Honestly, money is evil. I was born, grew up and continued to struggle. There are individuals out there with money and are miserable with the way the world works, even though they do nothing to solve the problem and even become a part of it. It's not the lack of money that makes me feel like I'm ready for the next round, it's the value placed over a body that has me there

 

[blacksand]

I'm heartbroken and have been for years. That's the main reason. But much of the acute push to ctb is related to things money could solve.

 

[Sans]

Partially. But mainly it's because no one cares about me.

 

[TwistedNightmares]

Partially. My main reason is mental anguish caused by past and ongoing trauma, which can never be fixed with any amount of money.

 

[Noob]

the 1100 def helps me, but id rather not hav the broken neck, chemical illnesses, anemia, heart disease, chronic pain/insomnia/fatigue, ulcers and more and be able to work a little bit.! my illnesses/injuries cost me so much money i can never pay my bills and always behind/things getting shut off, which my many of my conditions even worse. health is everything imo! id rather hav that then a billion dollars. i wish could let some of people on here hav my body for a week, then give them thier reg bodies back, it may help some see they arent so bad and it could be so much worse. i dont know, it all just sucks ;(

I agree with you, health is the first necessity that needs to be met so life can be at least bearable.

I need money now, but i would never trade my health for a billion dolars. Maybe if i have children... then i would ctb and give them the money.