mittymittens
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- Jun 11, 2023
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i have had this friendgroup for a few months now and i was pretty happy for awhile then stuff started popping up recently and the more i thought ab it i felt more angry inside and felt like crying
an ex friend who used to be in this friendgroup said something similar as they felt "left out" as they saw my friends making separate group chats with usually the same people. i tried rationalizing my friends behavior because i knew these said groupchats were created due to interests that some people didn't have i guess, but deep down i felt worried
that ex friend is someone i am no longer in contact / no longer in the friendgroup as they did end up saying worse stuff about my friends, talking behind their backs to me insulting them not like above.
as of recently due to stress from unrelated issues i stopped being as active in the main groupchat and now i've been disassociating, feeling like they aren't really my friends
and more lurking around conversations i hear about more groupchats i didn't even kniw about, probably about interests which didn't really bug me at the time but then i hear my friend go "can we invite ___" and another one of my friends go "___ doesn't really know (said topic)"
and then my friend goes "___ doesn't know it either but they are still in it haha"
even though i'm not interested in whatever they are interested in it just makes me feel left out that there are people in groupchats who aren't even interested in topic as well
then it started bothering me a bit but i knew if i started thinking more about it the more it would've bothered me
today, my friend and two other friends are going to see each other and i'm not sure if more people are gonna come with too but they didn't really ask me
i texted my friend who's out seeing my other friends this morning and they didn't really respond but they were openly talking in the server so i'm pretty sure they saw my message
the thing that bothered me the MOST was that one of my friends who i wanted to see this weekend said he was busy and he couldn't hang that day but said he would figure it out but hasn't got back to me. as of today hes right now hanging with my other friends which makes me feel sad?
i dunno if this is valid or not but it's just triggering my bpd a lot and i'm trying not to do anything impulsive because i do not want to start drama
an ex friend who used to be in this friendgroup said something similar as they felt "left out" as they saw my friends making separate group chats with usually the same people. i tried rationalizing my friends behavior because i knew these said groupchats were created due to interests that some people didn't have i guess, but deep down i felt worried
that ex friend is someone i am no longer in contact / no longer in the friendgroup as they did end up saying worse stuff about my friends, talking behind their backs to me insulting them not like above.
as of recently due to stress from unrelated issues i stopped being as active in the main groupchat and now i've been disassociating, feeling like they aren't really my friends
and more lurking around conversations i hear about more groupchats i didn't even kniw about, probably about interests which didn't really bug me at the time but then i hear my friend go "can we invite ___" and another one of my friends go "___ doesn't really know (said topic)"
and then my friend goes "___ doesn't know it either but they are still in it haha"
even though i'm not interested in whatever they are interested in it just makes me feel left out that there are people in groupchats who aren't even interested in topic as well
then it started bothering me a bit but i knew if i started thinking more about it the more it would've bothered me
today, my friend and two other friends are going to see each other and i'm not sure if more people are gonna come with too but they didn't really ask me
i texted my friend who's out seeing my other friends this morning and they didn't really respond but they were openly talking in the server so i'm pretty sure they saw my message
the thing that bothered me the MOST was that one of my friends who i wanted to see this weekend said he was busy and he couldn't hang that day but said he would figure it out but hasn't got back to me. as of today hes right now hanging with my other friends which makes me feel sad?
i dunno if this is valid or not but it's just triggering my bpd a lot and i'm trying not to do anything impulsive because i do not want to start drama
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