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taiberjames
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- Jun 9, 2023
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Because of my depression I live now with my family in the uk.
When I just moved I was obsessed on searching for hanging locations in parks and public footpath, since that's the best around me..
I went for a holiday with my family this weekend, and got really excited to see there's a vast Forrest near by and was sure that finally I will have a location.
In the morning i put on my sneaking mode and told them I don't feel well- as soon as they left I ordered an overpriced taxi.
Walking in the forrest around 30 mins, is see the off path is too steep and there's no way I can climb it without travelers see and suspect..
The return walk of shame is horrible..
it's so hard to find the location since I'm not mobile, and to feel I missed a great opportunity like that really knocks me down..
I need this to end so bad..
Everytime like this I'm sure that this time it's going to be my last day, saying my Mental goodbyes and happy for the rest to come.
But once again returns to my endless pit.
How can things get better when im so obsessed on CTB?
How can i keep handling this?
The pain is so hard
When I just moved I was obsessed on searching for hanging locations in parks and public footpath, since that's the best around me..
I went for a holiday with my family this weekend, and got really excited to see there's a vast Forrest near by and was sure that finally I will have a location.
In the morning i put on my sneaking mode and told them I don't feel well- as soon as they left I ordered an overpriced taxi.
Walking in the forrest around 30 mins, is see the off path is too steep and there's no way I can climb it without travelers see and suspect..
The return walk of shame is horrible..
it's so hard to find the location since I'm not mobile, and to feel I missed a great opportunity like that really knocks me down..
I need this to end so bad..
Everytime like this I'm sure that this time it's going to be my last day, saying my Mental goodbyes and happy for the rest to come.
But once again returns to my endless pit.
How can things get better when im so obsessed on CTB?
How can i keep handling this?
The pain is so hard