Help Is it a good idea to train to destroy my survival instincts?

[LifeIsASadist]

Since I have been laying off any CTB method to reset my survival instincts since my semi-successful test, I been considering maybe training myself to resist survival instinct. I have a good pain tolerance but I need to ensure I CTB as painlessly as possible so I ensure I don't get a really terrible side effect off the tourniquet method.

My personal potential training method is regularly doing dangerous activities such as speeding on my hyper e-scooter or cutting again.

I already know I am doomed to work bottom of the barrel forever.

 

[maylurker]

you will just end up having ptsd

 

[LifeIsASadist]

you will just end up having ptsd

Thats why start slow.

For example, Sean Strickland used to be super scared of everything until he began going super fast regularly on his motorcycle which gave me the idea to go fast on my hyper scooter regularly as a potential training method.

 

[ipmanwc0]

i think russian roulette would be a good training method. if u get the bullet ig u don't need the training