Is everyone afraid just before?

[Ambivalent1]

Somehow they're able to accept the fear and take the plunge.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I would have thought most people are. Reckon I'd be terrified. Still- the first goodbye thread I read here, the guy was so calm! He had N though. He said he was looking forward to it and was curious about how it would affect him. It sounded like he was in pain in his life. Maybe it just gets to the point where the horror of more life is more scary than attempting to die. Still- I reckon your chosen method has a lot to do with it... I reckon most people would be nervous jumping.

 

[Ambivalent1]

I would have thought most people are. Reckon I'd be terrified. Still- the first goodbye thread I read here, the guy was so calm! He had N though. He said he was looking forward to it and was curious about how it would affect him. It sounded like he was in pain in his life. Maybe it just gets to the point where the horror of more life is more scary than attempting to die. Still- I reckon your chosen method has a lot to do with it... I reckon most people would be nervous jumping.

The idea of falling and landing feels horrifying. It feels worse than my life has been. I would want to drink a lot but that would delay it. The problem with bridges is that people frequent them and would interfere when I pull over and step out.

 

[Forever Sleep]

The idea of falling and landing feels horrifying. It feels worse than my life has been.

Yeah- I think that's the case for a lot of us. Our lives feel bad but maybe not as bad as the fear and pain involved in an attempt- plus- the repurcussions if it goes wrong. I think that's why you sometimes get people here actually hoping their lives will get worse! To kind of push them into it. That's the obvious reason they don't give people access to Nembutal though. They don't want suicide to be an easy option. They want it as fraught with risk, fear and pain as possible.

 

[Orbitc]

Yeah- I think that's the case for a lot of us. Our lives feel bad but maybe not as bad as the fear and pain involved in an attempt- plus- the repurcussions if it goes wrong. I think that's why you sometimes get people here actually hoping their lives will get worse! To kind of push them into it. That's the obvious reason they don't give people access to Nembutal though. They don't want suicide to be an easy option. They want it as fraught with risk, fear and pain as possible.

So surprising is the hypocrisy and double standards of society - you will not be allowed to buy Nembutal, but most countries send thousands of soldiers to war every year, most of which will be killed or become disabled. Russia sends soldiers to war forcibly. What an absurd society we live in....

 

[gag_order]

So surprising is the hypocrisy and double standards of society - you will not be allowed to buy Nembutal, but most countries send thousands of soldiers to war every year, most of which will be killed or become disabled. Russia sends soldiers to war forcibly. What an absurd society we live in....

That is precisely one of the reasons why they want to keep people alive. They want to profit off of us as much as possible before we die. There isn't a state on this planet that wants you alive for your own good. It's just that, dead men can't work or pay taxes.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think it's impossible to know how people truly felt before they managed to free themselves, I just think that many people get so determined to leave which allows them to overcome any fears, they had access to a method that they feel confident in and they knew that the time was right for them to leave. I envy those people who are finally free.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

No fear of non-existence forever. Only fear of remaining alive in a worse situation and condition.

 

[dozer]

I suspect I will be very afraid when the time comes and hopefully I can steel myself and push through the fear. I kinda like the idea of using a firearm, it would be instantaneous if done correctly. With substances, there seems to be several things that could go wrong.

 

[TAW122]

It would be hard to deduce what exactly someone is feeling the moment they attempt CTB, especially for the ones who have succeeded since they are no longer existing/alive and cannot tell us what their last moments are. However, for those who survived (a failed attempt) or changed their mind right before their attempt/mid-attempt, it is likely their SI (Survival Instinct) kicked in and they are fighting to survive. So it can be inferred that they are likely fearful and full of adrenaline (mainly due to the SI and self-preservation instincts that all living organisms have).

 

[day]

I'm sure prior to CTB your SI runs a bit rampant. Some methods such as Nembutal sound so peaceful though compared to others. Most of my concern isn't in survival it's if I fail that I fear more than anything.

I remember my last time attempting CTB with Xanax I was pretty terrified because I could tell it didn't work. The first hour or two I was pretty comfortable and accepting of what my goal was.