Provocative! I respect your perspective--truly. And I think you have a good point that there's some selfishness in keeping a well-researched method and its implementation to ourselves. I tried about three years ago to go with someone else who had a lot less cash for resources than I did. I did all the work, even renting a large cabin on 35 acres of pristine private forested property on the US/Canada border where we'd both have the peace we said we desperately needed to make our final legal plans. That person not only robbed me of over $10K in cash but eventually made the time hellish by involving his on-again-off-again girlfriend, even bringing her up to what was for me a refuge before the end.
Long story short, it was a months-long nightmare that lead to years of even worse suffering, including the defrauding of my entire life's savings I'd hope to leave for the few organizations. Now, I'm gravely impoverished and nearly homeless. As much as I would LIKE to help others, I just can't afford to be victimized anymore. One of the reasons I'm such a failure in life is I'm a horrible judge of character. I trust and want to help everyone and am poor at discerning the wolves in sheep's clothing. I've tried to make suicide packs multiple times in the past, actually. It always-always-always fails. I've even had people reject my joining their group or going with them because, and it's humiliating to admit this but it might help others, I'm the wrong type of person (wrong gender, wrong age, wrong appearance...). I've been stunned to learn that even at the end, moments before dying, you can still be rejected as "wrong."
When it finally happens for me, it will be quick, quiet, and 100% alone. I hope you and others can find whatever peace you might need/want with other CTBers.
