Is anyone worried that they will regret their decision after drinking the cocktail

[MissNietzsche]

Honestly, I can see myself freaking out a bit after I've consumed it. I just fear the unknown. My plan is to put on a cute animated movie and distract myself until I fall asleep.

That's a really good idea!

I really hope I would be able to concentrate on it though! Some part of me tells me I wouldn't be able to hahha

I don't get it, if people are already thinking that they might change there minds, then surely they are not "ready" or fully decided or have many doubts...maybe some hope left even...or whatever u wanna call it...or what am I missing? Not being rude I just don't understand it...

Yep..I don't want to ctb until I'm certain I wouldn't have SI/regret kick in. I think I was at that stage at one point in my life. I'm trying to wait until I get to that point again.

 

[k75]

Well, my best advice to you is do not rush. Do not attempt anything if you have any doubts. Remember you can always die later, but you can never come back to life.

 

[MeltingHeart]

Well, my best advice to you is do not rush. Do not attempt anything if you have any doubts. Remember you can always die later, but you can never come back to life.

Succinct but wise.

 

[Wayfaerer]

I'm sure I won't. I'm already past the point of no return.

 

[Ross]

I go back and fourth a on weather or not I want to CTB a lot. And I recently had the thought of what would happen if I regretted my decision right after drinking the SN. Thankfully I don't think I would have much time to worry, but it is a thought I have been pondering.
Have you ever felt this way before?

if you think for one second you may regret then do not attempt as can't be reversed.

 

[anchored_astronaut]

This worries me a lot when I'm considering methods involving poisons, especially because I'm bulimic so if I do get too scared I could very easily vomit and then I'd just feel like a damn fool having wasted time and money just to nope out. I'm sure "setting the scene" would help me feel more comfortable... the right playlist, the right (recreational) drugs, a comfy place to lie, something pretty to play with while I wait, etc... but still I'm too worried to attempt because I'd probably abort the mission. Hell, one thought about the wrong person finding my body (I live at home with family still. I'm cool with abusive mom finding my corpse. I am not cool with my wonderful brother finding my corpse) and I'd totally put an end to my end. There's so much anxiety around it for me. Funnily enough anxiety is a lot of why I want it. Fear of an attempt failing because of my reservations is a big part of why I haven't tried yet.

 

[FohPah]

An idea that I've had is to drive way out into the desert, without my phone, and spend my last night stargazing. And then retire into my car when ready, cover the windows, lock the doors, and do the deed.

I would just need to make sure that if for any reason I do decide not to start the process, then I can still drive back to my phone and cancel the timed message to the authorities.

 

[Moonicide]

I won't regret taking my fate into my own hands. For me it's the anxiety, the whole, "Oh my god. It's really happening. I ingested this poison and I am going to die. I am dying like I've always wished for." It's the unknown factor... What happens after? I know more than likely I'll just pass out and die. It's like falling asleep, nothingness and peaceful.

 

[Santiago]

More worried about it being a terrible experience. It's easy to read that you might feel a bit nauseous, experience a fast heartbeat or have a chance at getting a seizure.

To actually experience it is a whole different thing.

 

[PeaceisallIwishfor]

The most comforting thing is that everyone has to go through it eventually.