Help Is anyone here willing to be a friend in what is likely my final week?

[WhatIsMyLife]

So, I've been on SS for around six years. I've made quite a few friends that have unfortunately ctb, and now I think my time is coming to an end by the end of next week.

A little backstory, I've tried to go through with it quite a few times, but SI has gotten the better of me which fucking sucks.

I'm someone who likes to get to know people. Hear their story. Find out how they ended up on this site. I'm also happy to chat about other things as well

I'm not after a partner or anything, nor do I have to meet any of y'all in person. Heck, we don't have to do any sort of video call either. No matter where you are in the word, I'm just looking for someone to message and chat with so I don't feel as alone...

I also completely understand the emotional toll on anyone I do chat with knowing that it's only a short term connection.

The emotional drainage of failing to go through with ctb takes an incredible mental toll, and I really don't want to experience it again. I just want to get it done.

If anyone is out there that would like to chat with me, it would mean the world to me.

Thanks all!

 

[hdead]

Sorry to hear what you're going through and have been through. It's absolutely draining, I understand. I'll be more than happy to connect and share with you if you'd like.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

It's been over 6 years for me too, I've been here forever it seems like. Crazy to think we both joined in 2020. I too have tried to end my life multiple times but couldn't go through with it, so the first part of your post feels like something I could've written about myself as well.

Even though I'm not in my final week yet like you are, I could be a friend to you too.

 

[Set Real Goul]

I'd be happy to chat with you. I'll be a bit busy this evening, but I'll be more active and have more time to talk on other days

 

[Live_Life55]

So, I've been on SS for around six years. I've made quite a few friends that have unfortunately ctb, and now I think my time is coming to an end by the end of next week.

A little backstory, I've tried to go through with it quite a few times, but SI has gotten the better of me which fucking sucks.

I'm someone who likes to get to know people. Hear their story. Find out how they ended up on this site. I'm also happy to chat about other things as well

I'm not after a partner or anything, nor do I have to meet any of y'all in person. Heck, we don't have to do any sort of video call either. No matter where you are in the word, I'm just looking for someone to message and chat with so I don't feel as alone...

I also completely understand the emotional toll on anyone I do chat with knowing that it's only a short term connection.

The emotional drainage of failing to go through with ctb takes an incredible mental toll, and I really don't want to experience it again. I just want to get it done.

If anyone is out there that would like to chat with me, it would mean the world to me.

Thanks all!

Whats the method if you don't mind me asking

 

[fitoo5999]

Yes, send me a message. I'll be happy to talk

 

[WhatIsMyLife]

Whats the method if you don't mind me asking

SN. Joining back in 2020, SN was readily available on Amazon and eBay for like $10-$15. So I've got like four tubs worth just sitting in my closet ready to go. I have all the prescription drug that the PPH recommends as well.

Tbh, I could do it right now. But preparing the magic drink triggers an insane amount of SI that you wouldn't believe. I just can't do it. Sitting by myself in a hotel room with nothing but your thoughts. I just don't have the willpower.

 

[Gild-Holm-’Ur]

Good early morning to you, WIML.

 

[hdead]

SN. Joining back in 2020, SN was readily available on Amazon and eBay for like $10-$15. So I've got like four tubs worth just sitting in my closet ready to go. I have all the prescription drug that the PPH recommends as well.

Tbh, I could do it right now. But preparing the magic drink triggers an insane amount of SI that you wouldn't believe. I just can't do it. Sitting by myself in a hotel room with nothing but your thoughts. I just don't have the willpower.

Do you have the DDAMPh?!

 

[divineprana]

I don't think I can message yet but I'm looking for friends too.

 

[WhatIsMyLife]

Do you have the DDAMPh?!

Erghhh what is that?

 

[hdead]

Erghhh what is that?

It's the drug cocktail that's recommended in the PPeH.

 

[fluorescentpearl]

Do you have the DDAMPh?!

These damn acronyms are starting to make me go insane
I'd offer to be a friend OP but I'm also on my last week, it is a shame I haven't met uu sooner, but I hope uu find great peace! Everyone deserves to feel a bit happier in their last moments..

 

[WhatIsMyLife]

It's the drug cocktail that's recommended in the PPeH.

Looks like Morphine is the major drug that will make it tricky to get

 

[hdead]

Looks like Morphine is the major drug that will make it tricky to get

Yeah it says 15 grams which seems excessive to me. It's not hard to source on DNMs though. But I'm going with primarily oxy and some stuff on top.

 

[rosegoldmoon]

So, I've been on SS for around six years. I've made quite a few friends that have unfortunately ctb, and now I think my time is coming to an end by the end of next week.

A little backstory, I've tried to go through with it quite a few times, but SI has gotten the better of me which fucking sucks.

I'm someone who likes to get to know people. Hear their story. Find out how they ended up on this site. I'm also happy to chat about other things as well

I'm not after a partner or anything, nor do I have to meet any of y'all in person. Heck, we don't have to do any sort of video call either. No matter where you are in the word, I'm just looking for someone to message and chat with so I don't feel as alone...

I also completely understand the emotional toll on anyone I do chat with knowing that it's only a short term connection.

The emotional drainage of failing to go through with ctb takes an incredible mental toll, and I really don't want to experience it again. I just want to get it done.

If anyone is out there that would like to chat with me, it would mean the world to me.

Thanks all!

Hey, you can always message me. I am here if you want to talk or vent. :)