Venting Is anyone else's sleep this terrible?

[kunikuzushi]

I dissociate all day. I suppress so many feelings because it's the only way I can get through a day. But when I sleep, I can't control my brain and it releases everything. I have nightmares of my greatest fears every night and even traumatic childhood memories that I can't access when I'm awake. I wake up so exhausted and traumatized.

I'm really at my limit. I need someone to talk to. But really I just want all this to stop. It's been too long. What am I doing still alive?

 

[nothingbutafailure]

It's 5 AM here I haven't slept.

 

[kunikuzushi]

It's 5 AM here I haven't slept.

I'm usually up till 5am every day. Sorry to hear you're struggling with sleep too. I'm in bed trying to sleep but procrastinating

 

[princexhhn]

Are you alright? Have you slept yet?

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Woke up 2 or 3 hours ago.... Tried to watch TV. Here I am.

 

[butimstillsoblue]

I dissociate all day. I suppress so many feelings because it's the only way I can get through a day. But when I sleep, I can't control my brain and it releases everything. I have nightmares of my greatest fears every night and even traumatic childhood memories that I can't access when I'm awake. I wake up so exhausted and traumatized.

I'm really at my limit. I need someone to talk to. But really I just want all this to stop. It's been too long. What am I doing still alive?

I was like this every night until my psychiatrist gave me several meds to stop the trauma dreams and help me sleep.

I feel depressed, anxious and worn out. But reading your post reminded me of what I was going through before these meds, which wasnt long ago. Maybe I should be grateful.

I hope someone can help you, I understand what youre going through is a living nightmare.

 

[kunikuzushi]

Are you alright? Have you slept yet?

Thank you dear. I did sleep yesterday, and now it is the next day and I'll try again. Hope things are well for you.

Woke up 2 or 3 hours ago.... Tried to watch TV. Here I am.

Hugs. I hope you're getting some rest again or at least relaxing.

I was like this every night until my psychiatrist gave me several meds to stop the trauma dreams and help me sleep.

I feel depressed, anxious and worn out. But reading your post reminded me of what I was going through before these meds, which wasnt long ago. Maybe I should be grateful.

I hope someone can help you, I understand what youre going through is a living nightmare.

I'm sorry you've experienced this too. And I'm so glad you found something to help it. Thank you for the kind words, and I wish you comfort and peace.

 

[Whole-Ad]

I used to dream about killing myself every night. I'd wake up so disappointed and it would just ruin my day. I'd wake up several times a night and be unable to fall asleep again for at least 30 mins to an hour. So I'd be lying in bed for about 10 hours and only actually gotten like 5 hours sleep if I was lucky. This doesn't happen anymore since I take meds to aid sleep.

 

[Eriktf]

i given up sleeping, i dont even try to sleep before i know im realy sleepy then i take 3 types of sleep meds