Venting Is anyone else here a loner?

[Nigh]

Yeah. I never really had too much problems making friends. But I always liked doing my own thing and had to cut out friends for being clingy and too in my business. I also cut people out due to being ashamed of my mental health problems. I've never really felt that sad about it. Maybe cos I never thought I'd live that long to care.

The only people I really miss, though, are those I grew up with. Who were true friends. But I wouldn't be a good friend now. I would have nothing to give anyone. I find it hard juggling family relationships as it is, let alone keeping up with friendships.

But I never really felt lonely. As I've always kinda liked my own company. And felt the most comfortable in my own space, probably due to my anxiety issues. But recently I have been. Which is more down to a family breakdown, than anything eles. When you have problems in your family and you also have no friends. Who do you turn to? That's when the real loneliness sets in.

 

[Trakehner]

I've always been very quiet, but for the past few years I've been a complete loner. No friends. I only leave the house to go to appointments. I am super awkward and don't understand how to socialize normally.
Sometimes I wish for human connection but understand that it likely won't happen so I try to find solace in my isolation.

 

[tbroken]

I'm more than desperate as well... At morning I don't want to wake up either and I missed all my chances to escape from this shit... It could be a lot more different, if it wasn't for PTSD. Now I'm stuck and it is too late and I hate this fucking life more than anyone could ever imagine.

 

[DeletedAccount0864]

I'm more than desperate as well... At morning I don't want to wake up either and I missed all my chances to escape from this shit... It could be a lot more different, if it wasn't for PTSD. Now I'm stuck and it is too late and I hate this fucking life more than anyone could ever imagine.

Just wanted to say that I feel the same way. I know it all too well :(

 

[Raven2]

I have a few friends but I dont really see them that often. 2 of them have offered to meet up but i just feel like i dont want to socialise with anyone rn i guess it's the depression and apathy. I have nothing of interest going on in my life so dont really have much to talk about with them.
I never really had close friends and do see myself as a loner. I seem to prefer my own company but I do feel the loneliness a lot.

 

[Throwawayacc3]

Yes

Edit: loner with people. With animals they seem to just come to me. People always comment on it. Prefer it. Fuck people.

 

[Ash’Girl]

I am now, when I was younger I was much more balanced between social interaction and me time. I've always needed a lot of decompression time because I find it draining to be around people too much but I also used to need a certain amount of contact.

Now I'm a complete hermit, and very detached from the world and the people in it.

 

[SilentSadness]

Yes I am, every day I wish something would change, but it never does.

 

[BlendedHeart]

I have been a loner for many years. There have been days where literally I don't speak with anyone, not even online. It wasn't always like that. I used to have a small circle of friends during my academic years, but that's gone and most of them aren't coming back to me. It's my fault. I'm not a good, functional human being, I guess.

Recently I came back in contact with a college friend. She said I can count on her, so I've been sending her a message a day telling her how I feel, or things that are happening. I'm afraid that won't last very long, so I'm very cautious with oversharing. We'll see.

 

[momento.mori]

I use to be the oife of the party, I can't imagine I'm here now. I decided to ditch all my friends and live a life of solitude after they plotted together and had never committed on a 72 hr hold! It was such a violation that I could never forgive them for. I'm always been very open and honest about my life and anyone who knows my story would understand me wanting to peacefully exit this cruel world, it was very selfish of them to force me to stay. I just fantasize about leaving this world now, I would attempt anymore but if I have to stay, I'll stay alone and won't burden anyone ever again about my problems, sharing myself only gave me more problems. So I'm a loner by choice, I doubt I'll ever trust anyone on that level ever again.