Is anyone dreading Christmas this year?

[MovingOn]

If my SN arrives, I'll be dead before Christmas. But I don't dread Christmas, I just ignore it pretty much.

 

[outrider567]

This year it doesn't exist

 

[Rairii]

Christmas is so triggering for me. I especially hate the Christmas music in buildings that have started to play again. I nearly had a panic attacked at the pharmacy a couple of weeks ago because of it. This is just the time of year where I try and avoid going out as much as possible. Even still it doesn't stop me from crying when I'm at home and it's actually Christmas. I wish it didn't affect me so much. At least I'm not working like I was last year during this time, was having melt downs every shift.

 

[princess-oph]

It used to be my favorite holiday since 2015 it has just felt like nothing. Not even any snow lol it's grey out

 

[LiminalFantasies]

I don't mind celebrating Christmas, but I dread the fact of having to buy presents for everyone in my family (something my family taught me that doing so means that you still care about the others). I might be thinking that if it's something like clothes, electronics or those types of items; they will not be using it at all, which kinda defeats the point of giving presents (I was reffering to anything that isn't food or money related, anything that is consumed right away). I'm not Christian either, but love the festive feeling that gives off. Also feels quite materialistic, I have to often donate (if is in good condition) or trash all the stuff that accumulates each year from presents of half of the holidays in a year.

That someone gifts me anything that I don't get to keep for years, like money (buying anything that I want and use it for) and having a family gathering will be enough for me.

 

[Dark Moon]

I don't even want to celebrate christmas for this year after a traumatic event that happened earlier this year but also having to go to family gatherings and dread having to find what gifts to buy for everyone.

Christmas was just happier for me as a kid but not nowadays.

 

[Zegers]

xmas is a time for reasonably happy/hopeful people, for others it has no meaning at all. I used to believe in that love/miracle-things of xmas movies, although i guess life is more enjoyable when you are hopeful and when youre not, it's depressing to see how unimportant you are.

My ideal life, if it had been possible, would have been a very solitary one, with one life partner and a few close friends

That's not a lonely life at all..

 

[makethepainstop]

Christmas is just about five weeks away and I'm already just dreading it this year.

I haven't had a good or fun Christmas since at least 2014 and goodness knows, for me personally, Christmas 2022 is looking like it will be as bad as the other ones. I used to love Christmas and all the fun things about it but, man, it's now a holiday I just cringe at when Halloween is over.

Is anyone else dreading this year's Christmas?

Just Christmas?!! Oh no, not this boy. I dread every day, alone, broke and single!

 

[TydalWave]

The Holidays are ALWAYS a hard time for me.

I used to think it was due to seasonal depression but I have learned over the years that for me personally the obligations and stimulus with conflicted family situations has caused a lot of anguish during the holiday season. Fuck I hate December.

 

[Ashu]

That's not a lonely life at all..

You're right. In any case, I didn't get it, which is why I used to take long solitary walks on Christmas Day.

 

[Anonymus]

I can't stand it, I get anxiety attacks, nausea, shaking, ... I am very nervous. I feel the neighbors shouting, vacuum cleaners, furniture being moved, people up and down the stairs and talking on the landing..., I don't want to go out in the street because it is worse with the cold and with nowhere to go to be calm.

My mother has told me she wanted to invite my sister home so the three of us could be together and I have told her I refuse (I usually eat alone with no one near me), I have told her to go home with her or I refuse to make my food that day (I don't like rushing, they wouldn't let me make my food in peace or eat it in peace).

Last year I had a hard time all the Christmas holidays (I know they last too long, the kids won't go back to school until January 9th or 10th, there's no one to put up with them).

Every year it gets worse.

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No el suporto pas, m'agafen atacs d'ansietat, nàusees, sacsejades,... estic molt nerviós. Sento la cridoria dels veïns, aspiradors, mobiliari que es canvia de lloc, gent amunt i avall per les escales i parlant pel replà..., no vull sortir al carrer perquè és pitjor amb el fred i sense tenir on anar per estar trànquil.

Ma mare m'ha dit que volia invitar a casa a ma germana per ser tots 3 junts i li he dit que em nego (normalment menjo sol sense ningú a prop meu), li he dit que s'en vagi amb ella a casa seva o jo em nego a fer-me el dinar aquell día (no m'agraden les presses, no em deixarien fer-me el dinar tranquil ni menjar-me'l en pau).

L'any passat ho vaig passar malament totes les festes nadalenques (es que duren massa, els nens no tornaràn a escola fins el dia 9 o 10 de Gener, no hi ha qui els aguanti).

Cada any és pitjor.

 

[ShanaRei]

Yes. Poorer than I've ever been. But it's more just I'm older and my living situation sucks. It's just super depressing. I'm a middle aged older woman who failed at life. So now I get to watch other happy people enjoy their nice lives while I struggle with poverty, loneliness, boredom.

Indeed.

Feel this.

 

[ShanaRei]

Christmas is a holiday for the rich and for kids. That's how I feel about it.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I'll be alone this year just like I was last year. It's just another day. Should be the last one I'll have to endure, though.

 

[ForeverLonely82]

Not dreading it. Just hate it. Loved it as a kid, got presents, family had dinner together and was constantly happy on that day. Now no presents, no family just... nothing. I'll probably eat a turkey and dressing completes like I do for thanksgiving...I might buy some beer just to numb the sting of the holiday. For those who see family and go places for holidays. I envy you and please don't take it for granted as one day you'll end like myself or others who cry at home for being unloved.

 

[Spiritual survivor]

Christmas is a holiday for the rich and for kids. That's how I feel about it.

Did u know that December 25th isn't even Jesus birthday? It's Nimrod's. So we are celebrating the birthday of someone evil. Jesus was born on Sept.11, not coincidentally the same day they bombed the World Trade Center in 2001.

 

[Someday_Somehow32]

I used to love Christmas, now I'm just waiting to get it over with. The sooner its gone, the sooner I can ctb in peace

 

[jessisme]

I love Christmas. My family has always made an effort to make it a joyous time filled with beautiful things like decorations, lights and the Christmas tree, delicious foods and people in good spirits. I don't think I could pull off Christmas if I did not live here with my mother. All of the Christmas stuff is here and I have no Christmas stuff of my own. I have no friends and have mostly alienated myself from
family. They only come around to see my mother and I am mostly just an aside. This year I am trying to especially enjoy Christmas as my brother will be here from out of state and it is possible that this might be my last Christmas so I am trying to approach the season with this in mind.

 

[𖣴 nadia 𖣴]

I'm not dreading it but the lead up to Christmas is a depressing reminder of better times, nights out partying with friends, dancing, drinking, live music, the Christmas lights and the atmosphere around this time and on New Year's Eve.

 

[SamTam33]

I don't know why I went on Instagram. Out of habit I guess. Now, all I can see is this one photo of a beautifully decorated living room with garland and lights. A lit fireplace.

Just a few hours ago, I had decided what I was making myself for Christmas dinner.

I was a little sad about not being able to watch the A Christmas Story marathon because I disconnected my cable. But that's ok because I can recite it verbatim in my head.

I honestly don't mind being alone for the holidays. It's not typical, but it's not unwelcomed either. I just don't want to be alone like THIS.

Now that I've seen that photo... I've lost my appetite.

I have this weird mix of feelings like "I'm better than this," and "No... No you're not."

(Yes you are)

I know I'm better than this. I'm just not confident in my ability to do anything about it.

I don't know where the strength is supposed to come from when you've used it all up.

 

[ConstantPain]

Feel this.

Me too

 

[enviro400mmc]

I feel such a sense of pain just hearing or reading people say anything along the lines of Merry Christmas this year. Just knowing that this normally happy time is going to be so unpleasant for me. And the weirdest thing is that this actually ought to be a lovely Christmas which I will get to spend with my family for the first time in a few years yet I know my mind will barely deviate from my desire for a bus trip.