imdepressed999

imdepressed999

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Jan 12, 2024
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Hello everyone, I feel like I am at the point of no return, CTB MUST HAPPEN! It feels good, at least the control it makes you feel, I cant even cry anymore, everything is just NUMB. I have tried making myself better, but each time I am sucked back in from bipolar depression. Ahhh i am just so tired, tired of EVERYTHING. tired of the huge but short highs. and the long and depressing lows, i just want a good fucking night sleep...
 
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hikikomorizombie

hikikomorizombie

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Jan 15, 2024
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i agree, it does feel good. for me it's a calming, mind clearing certainty. kms being my only logical option ensures that i'll die eventually. hopefully it's sooner rather than later.
 
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imdepressed999

imdepressed999

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Jan 12, 2024
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i agree, it does feel good. for me it's a calming, mind clearing certainty. kms being my only logical option ensures that i'll die eventually. hopefully it's sooner rather than later.
I agree, any time my logical minds comes back on it makes me feel bad and question, but when i just say fuck it i feel in control.. like going down with the ship.
 
Old Friend

Old Friend

Sleep well, Airstrip One.
Sep 24, 2023
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I hope I'm not but fear I am.
 
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sewycidial

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Jan 13, 2024
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Hello everyone, I feel like I am at the point of no return, CTB MUST HAPPEN! It feels good, at least the control it makes you feel, I cant even cry anymore, everything is just NUMB. I have tried making myself better, but each time I am sucked back in from bipolar depression. Ahhh i am just so tired, tired of EVERYTHING. tired of the huge but short highs. and the long and depressing lows, i just want a good fucking night sleep...
I have bipolar too i can't wait to CTB. Did u ever end up getting the fent from the dark web?
 
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Immensevoid

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Sep 10, 2023
81
I'm absolutely at a point of no return and I can't even ctb. It's very sad for me not having a way out.
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
1,356
I've been past the point of no return for decades. Should've checked out 33 years ago.
 
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walkingdead2023

walkingdead2023

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Jan 2, 2024
377
That's me! I have to kms
 
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John Clare

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Feb 6, 2022
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I was in a similar state a while ago. And it felt good because it was actually my mind's way of protecting itself. Anything bad and I mistakenly felt like I was in control. When I realized my mistake, that was the point of no return for me. Is a nightmare.
 
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A born again but occasionally suicidal
Feb 13, 2022
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uzuf86

Too many mistakes and regrets
Jan 1, 2024
232
I must say I comfortably fucked my life to the extreme that I feel so uncomfortable about having to continue life now.
I was given a chance more than 8 years ago to set things right, but I only ended up completely ruining it and bring things to the absolute dump of a state they are in today
 
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