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shattered dreams

shattered dreams

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Jun 5, 2018
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Here is a short video that I really enjoyed and pertains to the subject of afterlife.

 
OnlyTheWind

OnlyTheWind

Serena / Meatball head
Aug 29, 2020
962
Not existing anymore "Nothing" is scaring on the first sight, but I assume it is the result of our survival instinct. This instinct is probably one of the reasons for inventing all kinds afterlife scenarios. Of course, I would prefer a good potential afterlife but reality doesn´t care about my preferences. I believe in science and that science reveals more and more of reality. The progress in science reduces the probability that there is any kind of existence after death to almost zero. I accepted it and became friend with this model of reality. I would just like to have evidence that there is no afterlife as clear as the evidence that there is no life before birth (reincarnation without remembrance is like not exiting). Maybe I cannot get rid of the world memory that suicides will suffer in hell.
Thanks, that makes sense. I guess it depends on how we are shaped to think about life/ death from an early age. As I don't consider science to be the final authority on what is and isn't real, my position is certainly going to be different. It isn't so much that I am afraid of "nothing", but that I want there to be "something". Either way, it won't stop me from CTB.
 
MG_39

MG_39

Physically ill suffering couch potato
Jul 5, 2019
221
"The other side" doesn't scare me at all. Because no matter how my life would have turned out I would eventually die just like everyone else. So it's not like I can avoid it. I really want to live, but I don't want to live this life that is just filled with endless suffering. I know how it feels to enjoy life, and it will probably never happen again, so death is something i'm really looking forward too. There is just one positive things with the fact that i'm still alive, and it's that those who care about me and love me don't have to suffer because of me. But I am very afraid of being stuck here on earth for decades and not having the option to end it. (Either because of health getting worse to a level where I can't end it, or because of a failed suicide attempt.)
 
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butterflycollector

butterflycollector

the suspense is unbearable ʕ⁎̯͡⁎ʔ
Aug 27, 2021
13
i am worried but im also pretty hopeful. i just cant believe there is nothing at all when we die. i really cant imagine nothing and darkness and too many other things convinced me there has to be something even if i dont know what it is till i go. what i hope for is an afterlife of some kind, i dont believe in heaven or hell, but just a general afterlife to go to. so i can be there forever. but reincarnation could happen or something, and i dont want that. i dont want to live any more life after this and i dont want to lose my memories and the people i care about. i want to be with them in the afterlife. what scares me the most though is the actual method of dying.
 
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fox_wannabe

fox_wannabe

Enlightened
Jul 7, 2021
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Yes, I'm worried that we don't get a choice and reinincarnate/come back, maybe to even worse external/internal situations. A tyranny of existence almost. That is hell to me - no choice and groundhog day. When I think about people born in horrific situations I can't imagine who would choose that, and come to the conclusion that they didn't and therefore we're also helpless despite trying to escape this dimension.
I read a bit of NDE report and these stuff weird me out.
Watch the YT channel. There is trap waiting on other side I am afraid, making us come back. For more info you can pm me. I am not selling anything. I am just very interested in afterlife.
 
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OnlyTheWind

OnlyTheWind

Serena / Meatball head
Aug 29, 2020
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and i dont want to lose my memories and the people i care about.
This makes me quite sad. I want to be with my crush forever in some alternate 2008 timeline.

I read a bit of NDE report and these stuff weird me out.
Watch the YT channel. There is trap waiting on other side I am afraid, making us come back. For more info you can pm me. I am not selling anything. I am just very interested in afterlife.

Interesting channel, I will give it a look. If the trap is inevitable, I would still prefer to end my present suffering and have a chance to roll the dice again.
 
fox_wannabe

fox_wannabe

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Jul 7, 2021
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Interesting channel, I will give it a look. If the trap is inevitable, I would still prefer to end my present suffering and have a chance to roll the dice again.
I mean It seams like It was spoken of in Tibetan book of the dead. When I look at this channel and others I think that we are not told whole truth. I am just afraid how suicide will change outcome of afterlife vs. "natural" death. Fuck I cannot wait till I die. Anticipation is killing me
 
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OnlyTheWind

OnlyTheWind

Serena / Meatball head
Aug 29, 2020
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I mean It seams like It was spoken of in Tibetan book of the dead. When I look at this channel and others I think that we are not told whole truth. I am just afraid how suicide will change outcome of afterlife vs. "natural" death. Fuck I cannot wait till I die. Anticipation is killing me
I think that it will be a long time yet, before a clear picture can emerge of what exactly happens, but the basics are sound imo. After watching a video last night, I too am wondering about how the outcome could change based on early exit. I recall reading somewhere how hanging suicides for instance, are more likely to stay attached to this world as ghosts. I've also gained an even deeper appreciation of how meaningless this world is.

The teachings of the Heaven's Gate group also follow those expounded on this channel. The concept of ending up where we believe we will end up, for instance, as well as the need to shed all identity with this physical world, including gender-consciousness, family, clinging to anything from the past (massive hypocrite here :ahhha:), desires, etc.
 
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Kennish

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Aug 17, 2021
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I read a bit of NDE report and these stuff weird me out.
Watch the YT channel. There is trap waiting on other side I am afraid, making us come back. For more info you can pm me. I am not selling anything. I am just very interested in afterlife.
I'll guess we find out when we die. I just hope it is better then the condition I'm in now. If reincarnation I would like a happy life with hobbies and loving family and career and good mental health and physical healt. Then I'm up for it.

If not, then I would like afterlife being at peace. The nothingness kinda makes my head explode.
 
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Rational man

Rational man

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Oct 19, 2021
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I dont fear it. Its going to happen to everyone. I just fear the death process, like a long drawn out painful death through illness
i am worried but im also pretty hopeful. i just cant believe there is nothing at all when we die. i really cant imagine nothing and darkness and too many other things convinced me there has to be something even if i dont know what it is till i go. what i hope for is an afterlife of some kind, i dont believe in heaven or hell, but just a general afterlife to go to. so i can be there forever. but reincarnation could happen or something, and i dont want that. i dont want to live any more life after this and i dont want to lose my memories and the people i care about. i want to be with them in the afterlife. what scares me the most though is the actual method of dying.
Was there anything before we were born ?.
 
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Chockles

Experienced
Sep 17, 2021
270
I fear failure to work as I'm more scared of living a few more weeks let alone decades in physical agony. I already feel terminally ill & believe nothing can be worse than this barely existing hell. But having no specific beliefs I am scared I will be punished for my mistakes in an afterlife tho I've read there is no judgement I've already gone through my entire life in last 10 months & feel nothing but guilt & regret that I can't do the things I enjoy anymore but struggle to move on for fear of what lies behind nothingness scares me as I want to learn have another chance as I know I've missed out on so much in this lifetime & so want to get out in nature again, learning guitar, drawing etc but can't.
I am planning to ctb next week. I do feel it's the end of the pad for me I can't cope any longer I just hope I succeed get the N down don't vomit & hope 12hrs is enough as it's all I've got before I'll be found by my parents.
 
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