tears and vomit
New Member
- Aug 21, 2025
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Holy shit, I'm constantly scared and my brain keeps coming up with new fears. I'm starting college soon, after being in Canada for a year, and I've changed my name and everything about myself. But I'm so scared that I'm going to run into people who've seen me at my worst. I'm terrified of what people will think of me.
I'm scared because my parents are struggling with money, and it's hard to work while in college. On top of that, I'm scared about my grades. I don't know if I'll ever make it. My past mistakes keep haunting me over and over, and these thoughts won't stop. I don't know what to do.
Yes, I'm unmedicated, and healthcare fucking sucks here, so it would be extremely hard for me to get on medication. Does anyone else struggle with this? Please tell me I'm not alone.
I keep telling myself that I'm going to ctb anyway to try to calm myself down, but it doesn't work anymore. :(
I just feel like I don't belong anywhere
I'm scared because my parents are struggling with money, and it's hard to work while in college. On top of that, I'm scared about my grades. I don't know if I'll ever make it. My past mistakes keep haunting me over and over, and these thoughts won't stop. I don't know what to do.
Yes, I'm unmedicated, and healthcare fucking sucks here, so it would be extremely hard for me to get on medication. Does anyone else struggle with this? Please tell me I'm not alone.
I keep telling myself that I'm going to ctb anyway to try to calm myself down, but it doesn't work anymore. :(
I just feel like I don't belong anywhere
