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laceytrigger

laceytrigger

The cutest girl in the world ♡
Mar 29, 2026
8
Hiii everyone! This is my first time posting something here so im a bit anxious since last time I asked something about suicide on a forum I had police officers show up at my house and my family wasnt happy...

A while ago I attempted an od and planned to take 1,200mg of adderall but ended up rushing and only taking 500mg
I ended up only being really anxious jittery and emotional, I couldn't sleep for 2 whole days, I couldn't walk straight because I was so dizzy and I was sweating so much while freezing, but my heart didnt feel any different and I didnt pass out or anything...

Anyway. Now I only have one bottle of adderall left and obviously it wont do. Ive also been on a lot of different meds and I think I might have some statella and maybe Concerta somewhere, but in the next few weeks im probably gonna get a vyvanse prescription so I was wondering (since vyvanse is stronger ive heard) if it would be possible to ctb on it?

I know it wouldnt be painless and would probably suck and take atleast a few hours, but I honestly dont care, due to where I live i dont have access to a lot of other methods, and im also pretty picky, besides as edgy as it sounds I dont mind the suffering much.


If possible, how much vyvanse do you guys think would probably be enough? (I weigh 42kg or about 90-100lbs if that matters.) And If I should mix it with the adderall to maximize the effect?


I hope I dont get the police again. Tell me to take it down if you think i might 🙏
also. I dont have a date planned and I dont think itd be soon or anything, one of my friends has been really nice and saying that seeing me is the reason he wakes up in the mornings so I dont wanna hurt him. Ill probably distance myself for months before I do it, so dont worry please.
 
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OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
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Sounds extremely unpleasant. Not the kind of drug you want to OD on.
 
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laceytrigger

laceytrigger

The cutest girl in the world ♡
Mar 29, 2026
8
Sounds extremely unpleasant. Not the kind of drug you want to OD on.
Yeah Ik. I just dont have access to anything quicker or less painful, tried to get a diagnosis for my sleep disorder so I could get some kind of strong sleep pill and od on that instead but they just prescribed me vyvanse.
Do you think itd be possible though?
 
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OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
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Do you think itd be possible though?
I don't know. I just know a megadose of a stimulant could be hellish. Having a heart attack under extreme anxiety doesn't sound fun.
 
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U. A.

U. A.

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Aug 8, 2022
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An unfortunate welcome to you, and a no. Rx ODs are not a method:
 
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diazepam23

diazepam23

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Aug 29, 2025
19
OD's are unreliable but overdosing on stimulants has to be the worst. I've never OD'd but I once consumed a lot of alcohol and dexamphetamine recreationally (70mg). When the alcohol wore off, my blood pressure skyrocketed and I felt extreme anxiety and the worst physical pain in my chest. I panicked and took some benzos to calm me down and lower my blood pressure.

If you want to OD, it's better to choose a depressant (opioids, alcohol, benzo). It's probably best to take the benzos first before the alcohol or opioids so you don't choke on your own vomit.
 
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ilovenewyork

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Nov 16, 2025
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Don't use amphetamine it's a bad way to go and may not work. Neither vyvanse or adderall.
 
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lysergamide

lysergamide

SO YOU WANNA BE A TRAILBLAZER
Oct 2, 2024
91
If you want a big heart attack and big anxiety …
 
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laceytrigger

laceytrigger

The cutest girl in the world ♡
Mar 29, 2026
8
OD's are unreliable but overdosing on stimulants has to be the worst. I've never OD'd but I once consumed a lot of alcohol and dexamphetamine recreationally (70mg). When the alcohol wore off, my blood pressure skyrocketed and I felt extreme anxiety and the worst physical pain in my chest. I panicked and took some benzos to calm me down and lower my blood pressure.

If you want to OD, it's better to choose a depressant (opioids, alcohol, benzo). It's probably best to take the benzos first before the alcohol or opioids so you don't choke on your own vomit.
Thanks for the advice!! I just thought about using stimulants because I dont have access to much else, my parents are both elderly and my mom has a lot of health problems, so I could technically look through her heart medications or something and see if anything would be useful, but I'd feel so guilty doing that.

I dont drink alcohol because it just kinda disgusts me so I definitely wouldnt be able to OD on it, I do think i might have Atomoxetine (brand name atomic) which ik is also used to treat adhd but it's not a stimulant im pretty sure. Do we think that might be possible?
 
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knowledgeseeking

knowledgeseeking

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Apr 5, 2025
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Stimulants would be shitty to OD on and Vyanse being an extended release drug would not be my choice if I did choose this shitty option.
 
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beyonddone

tried&failed fighting against corrupt family court
Sep 9, 2024
31
Hiii everyone! This is my first time posting something here so im a bit anxious since last time I asked something about suicide on a forum I had police officers show up at my house and my family wasnt happy...

A while ago I attempted an od and planned to take 1,200mg of adderall but ended up rushing and only taking 500mg
I ended up only being really anxious jittery and emotional, I couldn't sleep for 2 whole days, I couldn't walk straight because I was so dizzy and I was sweating so much while freezing, but my heart didnt feel any different and I didnt pass out or anything...

Anyway. Now I only have one bottle of adderall left and obviously it wont do. Ive also been on a lot of different meds and I think I might have some statella and maybe Concerta somewhere, but in the next few weeks im probably gonna get a vyvanse prescription so I was wondering (since vyvanse is stronger ive heard) if it would be possible to ctb on it?

I know it wouldnt be painless and would probably suck and take atleast a few hours, but I honestly dont care, due to where I live i dont have access to a lot of other methods, and im also pretty picky, besides as edgy as it sounds I dont mind the suffering much.


If possible, how much vyvanse do you guys think would probably be enough? (I weigh 42kg or about 90-100lbs if that matters.) And If I should mix it with the adderall to maximize the effect?


I hope I dont get the police again. Tell me to take it down if you think i might 🙏
also. I dont have a date planned and I dont think itd be soon or anything, one of my friends has been really nice and saying that seeing me is the reason he wakes up in the mornings so I dont wanna hurt him. Ill probably distance myself for months before I do it, so dont worry please.
Good question… glad i saw this cuz i have about 3,000mg of adderall and was thinking if it would work if i took it all, i have heart problems tho but as u stated i read that it is a pretty painful way to go
Also i cant believe u had to deal with police posting on here… please make sure ur address is not listed anywhere, thats not right, this should be a private safe space as way too many just simply do not understand nor can even try to relate to how we feel !!
Good question… glad i saw this cuz i have about 3,000mg of adderall and was thinking if it would work if i took it all, i have heart problems tho but as u stated i read that it is a pretty painful way to go
Also i cant believe u had to deal with police posting on here… please make sure ur address is not listed anywhere, thats not right, this should be a private safe space as way too many just simply do not understand nor can even try to relate to how we feel !!
Also, i tried to OD 2 weeks ago, clearly it didnt work… i could barely handle 2.5mg of flexeril and no more then 1mg of klonapin… i took at once about 150mg flexeril and 50-60 benzos… unfortunately i was woken up or i prob wouldn't have woke up but now i am having severe issues from it… all i will say is just try to make sure its like 95% gonna work before you do and that absolutely no one will interrupt u (possibly wake u up)
I still have about 200mg of benzos and been thinkin bout takin em all at once now that im messed up from all i already took but with some alcohol this time and pray it does it… idk tho like they say, ODs arent easy anymore unfortunately! Prob better off somehow finding heroine and shooting it up, ive never done it before but scared it still wont do it 😂
Sadly the train thing is prob the most definitive option for me or anyone at that…
 
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bpd_sucks

bpd_sucks

Member
Feb 26, 2022
14
why not fent? it's everywhere, it's what it's here for
 
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beyonddone

tried&failed fighting against corrupt family court
Sep 9, 2024
31
why not fent? it's everywhere, it's what it's here for
I tried to find it, dont know anyone… didnthave any luck otherwise 100% woulda went that way!
I tried to find it, dont know anyone… didnthave any luck otherwise 100% woulda went that way!
I mean i am near camden, nj & i went there a few times in past 2 weeks but idk wtf to do like walk up to randoms and ask if they have it? Feel like my luck ill end up asking an undercover cop 🤣
 
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sadbh

sadbh

Student
Apr 4, 2026
106
I tried to find it, dont know anyone… didnthave any luck otherwise 100% woulda went that way!

I mean i am near camden, nj & i went there a few times in past 2 weeks but idk wtf to do like walk up to randoms and ask if they have it? Feel like my luck ill end up asking an undercover cop 🤣
Lmaoooo I once did the same exact thing and people carry themselves there a certain way a night and they'd be so sus if I approached them randomly for drugs, I think.

You probably could go up to randoms during the day though. Doubt you'd get caught by an undercover cop.
 
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beyonddone

tried&failed fighting against corrupt family court
Sep 9, 2024
31
Just seeing tha now lol i agree fuck ice lol and its all good… are u near NJ Philly area? Or have any tips of how to go about getting it? Also how much around it is so i have enough cash on me… i am pretty sure itll do the trick for me immediately cuz like i said i never tried H so i think a very small amt of fent would do the trick for me, but i dont know what it looks like, how they sell it etc & also i dont want to not take enough & end up addicted to it (which i doubt will happen but i am thinking of every poss scenario)
well when u see this lmk any suggestions, advice, etc… it would be a miracle if i could go get that this morning & gone before tonight
 
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thevoidpointer

thevoidpointer

Member
Feb 20, 2026
57
Hiii everyone! This is my first time posting something here so im a bit anxious since last time I asked something about suicide on a forum I had police officers show up at my house and my family wasnt happy...

A while ago I attempted an od and planned to take 1,200mg of adderall but ended up rushing and only taking 500mg
I ended up only being really anxious jittery and emotional, I couldn't sleep for 2 whole days, I couldn't walk straight because I was so dizzy and I was sweating so much while freezing, but my heart didnt feel any different and I didnt pass out or anything...

Anyway. Now I only have one bottle of adderall left and obviously it wont do. Ive also been on a lot of different meds and I think I might have some statella and maybe Concerta somewhere, but in the next few weeks im probably gonna get a vyvanse prescription so I was wondering (since vyvanse is stronger ive heard) if it would be possible to ctb on it?

I know it wouldnt be painless and would probably suck and take atleast a few hours, but I honestly dont care, due to where I live i dont have access to a lot of other methods, and im also pretty picky, besides as edgy as it sounds I dont mind the suffering much.


If possible, how much vyvanse do you guys think would probably be enough? (I weigh 42kg or about 90-100lbs if that matters.) And If I should mix it with the adderall to maximize the effect?


I hope I dont get the police again. Tell me to take it down if you think i might 🙏
also. I dont have a date planned and I dont think itd be soon or anything, one of my friends has been really nice and saying that seeing me is the reason he wakes up in the mornings so I dont wanna hurt him. Ill probably distance myself for months before I do it, so dont worry please.
It's extended release so it has no immediate effect
 
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