HopefulSleep
Wants to sleep
- Apr 24, 2023
- 888
I am planning on taking sn either in the attic or storage room near the attic on top of the house my apartment is in.
The storage room is empty so no one goes in there but the one attic room is used so I am afraid I am so unlucky that before I am dead someone goes there and hears the death rattle or vomiting.
I am dumb so I can't remember to which side the door opens so maybe I can block it from the inside with my body but if not others could open it.
It is on a floor where no apartments are but I have to go up 3 floors to be there and I am afraid that I will have unluck and someone is in the staircase the exact time I go up and I don't know what I should do then and I can't abort the attempt cause I don't have infinite meto and benzos.
The walls aren't the best in the apartment I can hear what other family members say and I can hear other family above when they scream.
It is better than just in my room or in a forest I think but I am still afraid they will find me.
I could also look for a cheap hotel near me but I really don't have much money now and I am scared of seeing my abuser when going there that could come in way of the ctb if he searches for me again.
The storage room is empty so no one goes in there but the one attic room is used so I am afraid I am so unlucky that before I am dead someone goes there and hears the death rattle or vomiting.
I am dumb so I can't remember to which side the door opens so maybe I can block it from the inside with my body but if not others could open it.
It is on a floor where no apartments are but I have to go up 3 floors to be there and I am afraid that I will have unluck and someone is in the staircase the exact time I go up and I don't know what I should do then and I can't abort the attempt cause I don't have infinite meto and benzos.
The walls aren't the best in the apartment I can hear what other family members say and I can hear other family above when they scream.
It is better than just in my room or in a forest I think but I am still afraid they will find me.
I could also look for a cheap hotel near me but I really don't have much money now and I am scared of seeing my abuser when going there that could come in way of the ctb if he searches for me again.