I am struggling very hard with irrational (unreal) thoughts. I am at a point where I just cannot take anymore of my suffering but everytime I give in to the pressure I get bewildered by thoughts of fear that I know deep down are unrealistic. I fear that I am immortal, and that I cannot escape life no matter how hard I try. I also have bizarre or very strange thoughts of waking up in a coffin after being buried underground...(weird). I mean how intense can SI get??
I completely understand these are unrealistic thoughts fueled by survival instinct but how can one go around these thoughts/feelings when the circumstances are too much to bare?
I honestly am fed up and enough of being overwhelmed by constant fear. I keep telling myself that I will "do it" tomorrow but tomorrow ends up being next month. I keep delaying the inevitable even knowing that I do not have the strength to fight for one more day.
Can anyone else relate to this?
Any suggestions on how to channel my thoughts or feelings to think more clearly?
I would also like to add that I have already failed an SN attempt once by calling for help, I do not want to fail at it again.
I completely understand these are unrealistic thoughts fueled by survival instinct but how can one go around these thoughts/feelings when the circumstances are too much to bare?
I honestly am fed up and enough of being overwhelmed by constant fear. I keep telling myself that I will "do it" tomorrow but tomorrow ends up being next month. I keep delaying the inevitable even knowing that I do not have the strength to fight for one more day.
Can anyone else relate to this?
Any suggestions on how to channel my thoughts or feelings to think more clearly?
I would also like to add that I have already failed an SN attempt once by calling for help, I do not want to fail at it again.
